He said it was an accident.
I wonder if it’s the same kind of accident I’ll be gifted if I ever step too far out of line.
He glances at the untouched tray on the table and frowns. “You should eat.”
“I am eating.”
His mouth quirks—wry, a little sad. “My babushka’s cookies don’t count.”
His great-grandmother, technically.
But dementia’s stripped her of time and titles.
She’s all Russian fire and Italian chaos. And nearly every day, a storm—baking through the madness like sugar might reglue a mind unraveling thread by thread.
I don’t complain.
Sometimes I help her.
Play with the kids. Clean what’s already spotless.
Because I need something to do besides sit here like a doll. Dressed nice and locked up, just waiting to be moved.
“The cemetery?” he asks.
I nod, a little too quickly. My obsession with all things gothic slipping through. “I found one yesterday. The tiniest headstone from 1798.”
I thumb through my notebook and try to say the name.
The syllables twist in my mouth like a curse. “S… Svyat—Svyatoslav… something.”
The groundskeeper, sweeping nearby, leans in just enough to glance over my shoulder.
“Svyatoslav Mstislavovich Vasilenko.”
He says it slow. Patient. A quiet kind of reverence curling around every syllable—so much pride in his mother tongue.
In exchange, I throw the occasional bit of Scottish Gaelic his way.
The little I recall.
“1761–1798. Forever My Beloved.”
It’s the smallest headstone in the cemetery. And somehow, it manages to hit the hardest.
I swallow the tear before it can fall and shut the book.
I found it on the way to Dante’s mausoleum—though I don’t dare say that out loud.
The D’Angelos made it a fortress. One I break into.
Every. Goddamn. Day.
In two months, I’ve left more flowers than I can count.
Evil master leaves them for me.
And I leave them for Dante.