Page 37 of Reluctantly Yours

The gratitude shining in her eyes did funny things to my heart, but I wouldn’t have changed it for anything.Even though I knew it couldn’t last forever, that she would have to leave in a few months, and we were never supposed to be anything to each other, anyway.The warmth she stirred up after I’d spent so long feeling cold meant pushing any thoughts of the future away in favor of enjoying the present.

Wasn’t she always talking about living in the moment, anyway?

16

PENNY

“Are you sure?”His voice was low, hesitant, but the tension in his grip and the way his breath hitched told me just how much he wanted this.I braced myself against the shower wall with both hands.With his hand wrapped around my throat, he pulled my head back, and I turned so our mouths could meet.

I nodded, my breath hitching as I whispered, “I’m on the pill, and...I trust you.”

His fingers tightened around my hips, his forehead resting against mine.“God, I’ve wanted this for so long,” he murmured, his voice thick with restraint.

The first moment he pressed into me, skin to skin, his sharp inhale was the only sound I heard, sending a shiver down my spine.“So much better this way,” he rasped against my ear, his voice trembling.“I can feel all of you.”

God, he felt so good, filling me up like he did.

I braced myself against the shower wall with both hands, pushing back against Travis’ deep, sure strokes.The hot water spraying down on us was nothing compared to the heat between our bodies.The friction built with every stroke, and the tension in my core went tighter.I didn’t know where he ended and I began.I only knew he could never, ever stop fucking me.I would die if he did.

“So much better this way.”His voice was a breathless rasp against my ear.“I can feel you around me.”

His free hand slid down over my breasts, massaging them before traveling farther south and cupping my pussy.“I want to feel you come on me,” he moaned, moving faster, his body slapping against mine.“I want to feel every second of this tight pussy squeezing me.”

“Yes…” My head fell back against his shoulder.I was lost, totally locked in this moment.

If only it could last forever.

He took my unhappy grunt that escaped my lips before I could stop it as encouragement, driving himself harder, hitting places in me no one had ever touched.

And never will again once I leave.

No.I couldn’t think about that.The orgasm that was so close a second ago started to fade.I didn’t want to lose it.I didn’t want to losethis.

The thumb he used against my clit was miraculous.It sent bolts of fire racing from my core, radiating through my limbs.That was what I needed.“Yes, just like that,” I begged, arching against him, biting my lip to keep from shouting as the wave built, towering over me.

“That’s my girl,” Travis grunted out, pounding me mercilessly.“Let me feel it.Let me feel that pussy squeeze me.”

I came with a strangled cry, grinding my teeth, barely holding back the sound.These little early-morning get-togethers were dangerous, especially with Sofia on her new school schedule, which meant her internal clock wouldn’t let her sleep in.

A shattering orgasm rocked me head to toe, leaving me weak by the time Travis poured himself into me in a rush of warmth.His deep, throaty grunts touched something inside me, deep down inside, tainting my post-coital bliss with the lurking fears that had been growing in me day after day.

“Oh, fuck, you’re so good.”He pressed his lips to the side of my neck, sighing.“The best.”

Maybe it was wrong, but his comment made me giggle.“The best?The very best?”

“What’s wrong with that?”He slipped out of me, then reached for the body wash.We were supposed to be showering, after all.

“There’s nothing wrong with it.I just find it hard to believe.I mean, you could have anybody.”I grabbed the shampoo to wash my hair while he lathered up his chiseled chest and torso.I would never get tired of looking at him.Even now, with my body still tingling and his cum dripping down my thighs and coming down from the sort of high only he could take me to, I wanted to reach out and touch him.To trace the topography of his abs, to follow the happy trail of dark hair that led down to his impressive length.

There was no satisfying my craving for him.

But something would have to satisfy it, and soon.It was almost Thanksgiving.Time had flown by on wings, and Travis was only a couple of weeks away from the expansion going through and the first ships setting sail.

He would fly out to Manhattan the first week in December to officially put his new offices into production.There were days on end when we hadn’t seen each other while he dealt with business both out there and back here, where he still ran an extremely large and very busy company.There hadn’t been any mention of what he would do with Sofia when he was out there.I wanted to ask as the curiosity was killing me, but every time I got the chance, I wound up chickening out.

Because as much as the unknown was torture, there was still room for hope.Hope that he would keep me once the six months were officially up.Hope that he would tell me he didn’t want me to leave him but that he didn’t want me to stay as a nanny, either.

He hadn’t said the words.I was stupid to think he ever would.He’d never given me any indication I was staying, and even great sex didn’t guarantee he would want a future.The love we shared for Sofia wasn’t enough to build a relationship on.

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