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“Baby, I need to feel you, but I don’t think I can go slow right now. I promise, I will take my time with you next time. Over and over again.” I can only nod my head at him. Without a second to waste, Jay slams home. He’s still for what feels like forever, before he starts to move. In and out. In and out, he moves his perfect hips in a motion that will make ladies around the world fall to their knees in front of him and beg him to make lovetothem.

“Oh fuck,” he grinds out, bringing my thoughts back to us, in this room, making love. Well, if you can call rapid, hip-thrusting sex making love, then have at it. Jay keeps up his pace, making my body heat with need to come over him. I let my inner sex kitten out just for him. Just for Jay Castle, the man I am falling in love with. I feel a gush of wetness between my legs at the thought of loving this man for the rest of ourlives.

“God, whatever had you gushing like that, keeping thinking it, Kitten,” Jay pants out. He lifts my right leg over his shoulder and sinks indeeper.

“Oh, God, that feels good, Jay. I’m going to come if you keep that up,” Imutter.

“That’s what I want, babe. I want you to feel good, I want you to come all over my cock. And then you're going to clean it off for me. Aren’t you, my dirtynerdy?”

“Hell yes,” I all but scream. Jay grabs my left leg and puts it over his left shoulder with my other one. It feels tighter this way. I lift my gaze to Jay and see his eyes roll into the back of his head. I want to giggle, but stop myself when he reaches around my legs and runs his thumb over my clit. That is all the extra touch I need. Another orgasm skyrockets through my body, and I scream out Jay’s name. I get lost in the erotic pulses that are coursing through my body. I see stars - literally. I honestly thought that was some detail authors wrote in a book for added effect, but holyfreakingshit.

“Cassieeeeee,” Jay growls out my name as he stills, his orgasm taking over. My legs open and Jay settles between them, panting, trying to catch his breath. I hold his upper body close to mine, our chests pressed together like we are one. Our breaths mingling together. Sweat covers both our bodies, but in this moment, everything isperfect.

Absolutelyperfect.

“Kitten?” My name a whisper fromhislips.

“Mmhmm.”

“I love you,” he whispers against my neck. My body tenses, but then completely relaxes. His words wash over me and everything feels right. He feels right, not only against my skin, but right in my life. He belongs with me. I thought Dale loved me, but being with Jay just shows me that what I felt for Dale was nothing like love. I was a fool for thinkingotherwise.

“I love you, too, Jay,” I say, but even I can hear the unease in my voice. Jay snaps his head up to face me, his eyes showingconfusion.

“But?” he says, resting on his elbow and looking down at me. I lift my hand up to cup his scruffy jaw. I love the feel of his coarse hairs against my inner thighs. I run my thumb across his bottom lip and smile at him, but I know that it doesn’t reach my eyes, and Jay senses myhesitation.

“Please, don’t hurt me, Jay. I’ve said it before: I don’t know if I will survive you hurting me. What Dale did, even without the physical side of things… I believe you can hurt my heart more than physically hurting me.” He leans in and lays a gentle kiss on my lips, no added pressure, no rushing, just pure love. That one kiss says it all. He will never hurt me. Jay lifts his head and cups my jaw, holding me in place while he pours hisheartout.

“Baby, I will never hurt you. We have both been hurt in the past. I don’t ever intend to hurt you like that dickhead did. I would never hurt you in any way. You own my heart, Cassie. Heart, mind and soul. I know what it feels like to be hurt by someone you are in love with. Or thought you were. This… Us. It’s fucking real, babe. And not to ruin the moment, but now that I have had a taste, I amneverletting you go. You are mine.” I giggle at his words. Only Jay can pour his heart out and almost bring me to tears, and then make me laugh in the same sentence. Jay joins in the laughter, and I take that moment to push him onto his back and straddlehiships.

“So, what’s your recovery time?” Iaskhim.

“Why don’t you give him mouth-to-mouth and get his recovery started.” Jay winks at me and I burst outlaughing.

We spend the rest of the night exploring each other bodies. Getting to know more about each other. Over the past few months, that is what we have been doing, not only building a relationship, but a friendship, also. This is what a relationship should beabout.

Communication

Fun.

Trust.

Loyalty.

Love.

And in our case, plenty of mind-blowing sex. We fall asleep holding each other, our naked bodies never separating through the night. I dream of little boys running around my garden, of Jay chasing them. I see Dex and Addy there with an older Phoebe. The love is shining through the dream. The Castle family all together and growing by the minute. I will give Jay a big family one day. Maybe not tomorrow, but it will happen. I see Jay in every future dream that I have. I see two little boys and a baby girl to finish off ourfamily.

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We spendthe rest of the mini cruise exploring the ship. Even though the ship docks in Hamburg, we never get off. We were happy to sit around the pool and drink the amazing cocktails they made at the poolside bar. Jay especially loved the Batman bikini Chris had packed for me. He’s another guy that I will have to deal with when we got home. That sneaky bugger, helping Jay pack my clothes. Jay loved seeing me walk around the pool in any of the three bikinis I had worn, he loved seeing men ‘getting fucking hard, seeing a sexy kitten strut her stuff around the pool’ - his words, not mine. I never saw it, but I took his word for it. What I did see was plenty of girls eyeing up my man, and even flirting with him while I was standing next to him. On the second day, I lost it. We were standing by the bar and a girl came over and started rubbing her fake, watermelon-sized boobs all over Jay’s arm andchest.

Jay stepped back, but she didn’t take the hint and followed. It was pissing me off that she wouldn’t leave himalone.

“Umm, excuse me, me and my boyfriend were talking. So, could you please not rub all that fakeness over him.” The girl looked me up and down, and laughedatme.

“Is she for real?” she asked Jay. Jay just nodded. He didn’t say a word, but he was smirking at me, and pulled me tighter intohisside.

“Far more real than the things you have attached to your chest. Now please,stepback.”

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