Page 29 of Sweet Love From Saturn

“Whatever,” I said as I walked off.

“So, you just gon’ have an attitude for the rest of the night? I miss your call for the first time since you’ve known me and it’s all this?”

Ignoring him, I continued to move around in my kitchen. My emotions were mixed right now, but my petty side was still in the driver’s seat.

“You don’t hear me talking to you?”

“Nope.”

“Okay, Saturn. You can have it. I’m too fuckin’ tired to be goin’ back and forth with you right now. Especially when I did nothing wrong. I’ll see myself out. I’m glad you made it home safely.”

When the front door slammed, tears streamed down my face. Since I’d left work, my day had gone to shit. Spending the evening alone wasn’t something I planned on doing. Part of me wanted to chase after Mccoy and apologize for being petty, but another part of me knew he probably needed some space after I upset him. We’d gotten into a few small disagreements, but this was the first time we’d gotten into a full-fledged argument.

As the night went on, I had a chance to calm down and replay what Tiffany had said to me. She hit the nail right on the head when she said I’d be starting an unnecessary argument. In all honesty, I knew I owed Mccoy an apology. Most of my anger stemmed from embarrassment. My family knew I was dealing with a man, yet I still had to call my brother to help me. Mccoy had been nothing short of a good man, but I didn’t want anyone questioning me about why he hadn’t been there for me today.

Unlocking my phone, I called Mccoy for the third time in twenty minutes. This time, he ignored my call after the second ring. Hanging up, I decided to send a text apologizing. I’d gotten so used to sleeping with him that I was driving myself crazy. Mccoy had become a permanent fixture in my life and I didn’t like not having him around. The two of us were supposed to be cuddled up right now, watching a cheesy movie I picked out. After that, he’d dick me down so good and we’d fall asleep for the night. Going to his house crossed my mind more than once, but I didn’t do it since it was so late now. The thought of catching another flat kept me in the same spot.

More than ten minutes had gone by and he hadn’t replied. My eyes were barely open and I was getting cold. Standing from the couch, I turned the TV off and set my alarms before headingto my room. Still having hope that Mccoy would call or text back, I lay down and put the phone right next to my head so I could hear it go off. I’d done all that yelling and being mad, all for it to backfire on me. Sleeping alone with an aching heart I brought on myself wasn’t going to happen again. Once I got my man back, I wouldn’t let him go unless it was necessary.

TWELVE

Mccoy

It had been almost twenty-four hours since I spoke to Saturn. I was close to answering the phone the last time she called but didn’t. First, I was ignoring her because I was truly upset. I completely understood why she was mad, but I felt like she took it too far. I hadn’t done anything wrong. Sleeping alone last night had been uncomfortable, but I wanted to give Saturn more time. Getting into arguments was a normal part of a relationship, but I wanted her to think about if I was really who she wanted. Things between us were good, but if I was going to be the blame every time some shit went left, we needed to reevaluate our situation.

I felt like I did my best when it came to being there for her, yet she made me feel like it wasn’t enough. I came running every time she called, but I was truly busy this time around. When I left the shop tonight, I planned on stopping by to see her. I also noticed the shift in Sparky since last night. Since I’d gotten him, he saw Saturn every day. I missed her ass like crazy, but we needed to have a serious conversation.

“What about if you painted it gray or royal blue? I think that would be perfect,” Al said as he walked around the car.

Al was the same guy who had me missing my baby’s phone calls the other day. He came back yesterday with a deposit for the old school I’d gone to Kentucky to pick up. When he came by the other day, we’d spent almost two hours talking business and getting to know each other. Building relationships with my clients was a priority. Even if I knew they weren’t buying anything right away, I liked to talk and form some type of relationship. These were the people who kept me out of my nine to five, so I always treated them with respect. Now, Al and I were finishing the custom details before I really started to work.

“Blue paint was what I had in mind as well. I’m glad you said that,” I responded as I typed everything we discussed.

I was good at remembering every little detail of a current project, but I liked to type up something as a reminder. More so for the customer. It hadn’t happened yet, but the last thing I needed was to fix a car and the customer claimed something wasn’t right. It took me and Al another half hour to discuss everything he wanted. At the end of our meeting, I gave him an estimated total and he was cool with it. I had a few things I needed before I could officially start working on the car, so I locked the garage and left not long after Al. Not knowing how things would go with Saturn, I stopped at home and showered before pulling up to her house. Sparky’s big ass was up before I had the chance to place the truck in park.

When we reached her porch, the door was being pulled open. Saturn appeared in the doorway with an unreadable expression on her face, but beautiful as always. From the way her copper curls rested, I could tell she’d redone her hair. She stood there in one of my T-shirts with some little ass shorts on. Her pretty feet were bare and I could smell the body oil she used after showers.

“Hey, Saturn. I hope I’m not intruding in on your evening, but I wanted to talk to you. Plus, Sparky needed to see you,” I stated as I pointed to Sparky jumping all over her.

“You called me Saturn, so I’m assuming this talk isn’t a good one. Any other time you address me, it’s baby or bae,” she complained.

When she stepped to the side, I walked in and closed the door behind me. Taking a seat on the couch, I waited for her to do the same. After she and Sparky had their reunion, Saturn muted the TV and sat on the love seat to the left of me. From where we were seated, the two of us could still see each other face to face.

“Listen, I wanna start off by apologizing. Ignoring your calls wasn’t planned, but I feel like it was needed?—”

“Needed? Going a whole day without talking to the man who’s supposed to be my boyfriend was hell. I just knew we were done. I get it, I may have done too much taking my irritation out on you, but damn, Mccoy. A whole day? Just makes me wonder how long you’ll go when we actually get into it about something serious.”

“I wanted to give you a chance to think. I’m apologizing now because I realized that may not have been the best decision. I just need you to know my intention behind it.”

“Giving me a chance to think is a couple of hours, Mccoy. Not damn near a whole day.”

When a tear slid down her cheek, everything I planned to say went out the window. Like there was fire under my ass, I stood from the couch and went to comfort my baby. Pulling her onto my lap to straddle me, I gripped her chin and wiped the tears before kissing her.

“I’m sorry, baby. I really am.”

“I apologize for how I treated you. I know you wouldn’t have left me stranded had you known. There was just a lot going through my mind. Whenever my mom is in distress, the first person she calls is my dad. She calls him for everything. That’s what I want, Mccoy. That’s all I wanted,” she explained.

“You got that, baby. I tell you all the time I’m here and I got you. Whatever you need, I’ll provide that. I always wanna be the first person you call on. But baby, I need you to realize that I’m just a man. Mistakes will happen, but I’ll never intentionally disappoint you.”

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