Page 45 of Tobias

Or maybe I just really want to do this.

I swear there’s the faintest whimper that leaves him when I lean in, not at all holding back. He opens for me and our tongues meet before our lips do. He’s so unsure about this. I can feel his hesitance, but I’m confident enough for both of us. So I take the lead and show him what it’s like to kiss a man who gives a fuck about what the other person thinks. I never got that from Brandon and swore I would never bethatperson. The person who takes and takes and never gives in return.

I take pride in everything I do, including something as simple as kissing. The person I give my time to needs to appreciate it because it’s important to me. I want Theo to enjoy this, and I want it to be memorable. His first kiss with a man was with me. He’ll never forget it.

When I pull back, my hand still on his cheek, his eyes stay closed for far too long. When they open, I know I’ve made a grave mistake. A kiss like that could make a man fall in love. I’ve heard that enough times in my life. So, what do I do?I make it worse by brushing my fingers along his soft skin, smiling, then sitting back in my spot.

“Hot damn!” Nathanial shouts, fanning himself with his hand. “Anyone else in here have a boner over that?”

“Ew, don’t say boner!” Benton chastises.

“Boner, boner, boner.”

“Gag!” Benton points his finger down his throat, and everyone starts to laugh.

“Nathanial, you’re up,” I say to him.

“Truth. I’m not kissing any of you whores.”

“You’re the biggest whore of all!” Luca argues, laughing. Nathanial just flips him off.

“Ten minutes, guys!” Pete calls from behind the bar, and we all moan and groan.

I glance at my clock, not having a single clue what time it is. The bar isn’ttechnicallyopen, so there isn’t a closing time. We’re here illegally, and if anyone finds out, the bar would definitely be in trouble.

My watch says it’s almost 3:30.

“Damn,” I mutter with a chuckle.

“How did the time pass so fast?” Theo asks.

“That’s how it goes when you’re having fun,” I tell him.

He smiles, biting on his bottom lip.

“Hello! Earth to Tobias and Theo. It’s my turn!”

I pull my attention from Theo and look back at Nathanial, who doesn’t look annoyed in the slightest bit.

“How many guys have you fucked?” I ask.

“Oh, that’s easy. One.”

“Liar!” Mario calls out.

Nathanial wags his finger. “No, he asked how many guysI’vefucked. The answer is one. You all know I’m a bottom. And no—“ He looks at me pointedly. “You cannot rephrase the question.”

I roll my eyes and stand, the room spinning a little.

“I gotta piss.” I take off to the bathroom. Just as I get my pants unzipped, the door opens. I know who it is without having to look up. He’s somehow gained this presence about him, and I can feel when he’s around.

“Figured I may as well too, since we’re leaving soon,” Theo says as he takes up the only other urinal beside me.

I’d be lying if I said I haven’t wondered about his dick. Thought about what it would feel like in my mouth. How it looks. The way his tip would drip for me… More than that, I wonder about the sounds he would make. The way he would give over to pleasure because he’s never felt anything like it before. Sex is better when you have chemistry. There’s no denying we do. I thought it before, but if that kiss was any indication, well, it’s pretty damn serious.

He’s engaged…

Yeah. He is.

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