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“A little,” he answered, taking my hand gently into his. He opened my hand and my palm faced upward. “We make a small cut on your hand and I do the same on mine. Once we mix the blood, you become a member of my pack.”
“Can this be done with just any member of your pack?” I asked.
“No, only I can allow a new member into the pack.”
It made logical sense.
“Even you becoming a part of my pack will not be enough to keep you safe. We will need to mate,” he told me. I let out a sigh.
Here comes the fight.
“No,” I said as I pulled my hands from his. “I can’t, at least not yet.”
His jaw tightened and I could see the anger start to build inside of him. Although I understood his reason behind wanting to mate with me, it was something I wasn’t ready to do just yet. I’d join his pack, but I wouldn’t mate with him.
Because of my little lie, he wouldn’t realize that it was inexperience that made me hesitate to do that with him. And although he was my mate and I cared for him, I wasn’t going to take that step yet. I didn’t even know him that well.
I had no idea how long it would take for me to decide I was ready. It might be a week or two.
“You’re making it difficult to protect you!” he began to argue in a raised voice, but I held my hand up to him, signaling him to stop talking. He took a deep breath to calm his anger, but it didn’t seem to be working.
“Put yourself in my shoes for a moment,” I explained to him as I stood up. “I haven’t had a lot of time to get used to the fact that I’m a werewolf and now my life is going in an entirely different direction to what I’d originally planned.”
He watched me pace back and forth in front of him.
“I’m not saying I never want to mate with you,” I assured him. “I just need time to get to know you a little bit and get used to the idea.”
It was my own fault my jealousy had put me in this predicament. I couldn’t tell him the truth that I was a virgin and I’d never done anything more than kiss a guy. We were mates and destined to be together, but I was scared that his experience would make me feel inept.
What if I wasn’t any good at it? I was always strong and confident, but how could I be confident in something I’d never done? Besides, I’d held onto my virginity for a while and I wasn’t going to just give it up after only knowing him a few days.
I heard him let out a frustrated sigh as he stood up and faced me.
“You’re my mate and I have to do everything within my power to keep you safe, do you understand that?” he said angrily.
I nodded my head at him. No matter what reasoning he came up with to try to persuade me, nothing was going to change my mind. I wouldn’t be forced into taking a step I wasn’t ready for.
“Yes, I do understand that, but I’m still not going to do it,” I said, putting my foot down.
“I’ll never be able to forgive myself if something happens to you, you know that,” he said desperately. I could see the fear in his eyes.
“Answer a question for me,” I said as I stepped closer to him. I wanted to reach out and hold him to ease his fear, but I couldn’t, so I kept my arms at my sides. Besides, if I touched him it would distract us.
“Even if we mated, something could still happen to me?” I asked softly as my eyes held his.
He remained silent.
“Mating with you doesn’t guarantee that nothing will happen to me,” I repeated, watching his face for his reaction.
“No… but it will help,” he finally answered, realizing where I was headed with all of this. I’d made my point. A few minutes of silence and I felt his anger begin to ease.
“Fine,” he relented as he reached for me.
I smiled at him as I allowed him to pull me close.
“But if you won’t mate with me, then I’ll need to be with you all the time to protect you. It means I’ll share your room and I’ll drive you to school and back. You can’t go anywhere after school without me.”
Geez, he’s not kidding!He was really going into over-protective mode now. The only thing that made me a little apprehensive was the fact that he was going to share a room with me, but I was happy I’d won this round.
