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The classroom stilled, the sudden shift from academic exercise to genuine conversation palpable.

“Sometimes,” I continued, surprising myself with this unplanned vulnerability, “you need to revisit your foundations to remember why you started building in the first place. I began writing because I loved literature, because books helped me understand myself and the world. Somewhere along the way, that got buried under marketing plans and sales projections.”

“So you're, like, having a midlife crisis?” the same boy asked, though with less edge than before.

Several students laughed, breaking the tension.

“I'm twenty-nine, Jackson. Let's call it a quarter-life reassessment,” I countered, consulting the seating chart to identify him. “But yes, I suppose I am questioning what makes work meaningful. Which brings us back to narrative voice, and how the perspective we choose shapes the stories we tell.”

The lesson flowed more naturally after that moment of honesty, the students engaging with examples of first-person versus third-person narration with surprising enthusiasm. Throughout the discussion, I noticed a quiet girl in the back row, her dark eyes following the conversation with intense focus though she never raised her hand. Something about her reminded me of Mari at that age—serious beyond her years, taking in everything, selective about when to reveal her thoughts.

When the bell rang, students gathered their belongings with the usual scraping of chairs and overlapping conversations. As they filed out, the quiet girl from the back row approached my desk.

“Mr. Webb? Could you recommend any books about unreliable narrators? For independent reading?”

I looked up into familiar dark eyes, noticing her name tag for the first time: “Reyes, S.”

My breath caught. Sophie. Leo's sibling, now a freshman.

“Of course,” I managed, mind racing through appropriate titles while processing this unexpected connection. “Gillian Flynn'sGone Girlis the contemporary classic, though it's pretty dark. For something more accessible but still complex, maybeThe Perks of Being a Wallflower.”

She nodded, jotting the titles in a small notebook. “Thanks. I like stories where you can't quite trust what you're being told.”

“Those can be the most interesting kind,” I agreed, wondering what she'd think if she knew the history I shared with her older brother.

After Sophie left, I sank into my chair, the empty classroom suddenly too quiet. Leo's family remained directly connected to my daily environment in ways I hadn't anticipated. My careful plan for gradual reacclimation had already been complicated by family ties neither of us could have predicted.

The next class would arrive in ten minutes. I straightened my desk, trying to refocus on lesson plans rather than the ghost of memory Sophie's presence had stirred.

The bell rang again, summoning me back to the present as students began filing in. I stood, marker in hand, ready to guide another group through the complexities of narrative voice while my own story took unexpected turns I couldn't control.

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The faculty loungebuzzed with the particular energy of teachers during lunch period—a brief respite from classroom demands spent refueling on caffeine and comparing notes on students, curriculum, and administrative quirks. I balanced my tray of questionable cafeteria lasagna at the edge of a table where Marcus sat with several other English department members, the social geography of the room both familiar and foreign.

“Here he is!” announced Mrs. Greenfield, my former AP English teacher and now department colleague. Her red curls had silvered but her enthusiastic gestures remained unchanged. “Our celebrated author returned to his roots.”

The introduction sent a ripple of interest through nearby tables, creating exactly the kind of attention I'd hoped to avoid. I smiled politely, taking the seat Marcus had saved.

“Hardly celebrated,” I demurred. “Just happy to be back teaching.”

“Don't be modest,” insisted Mr. Bakshi, the debate coach who'd replaced our former mentor after retirement. “My wife has your entire collection on our nightstand. She'll expect an autograph when you come for dinner.”

“Speaking of which,” Mrs. Greenfield continued, “we should organize a special assembly. Let the students hear about your writing process, how you developed your career. Inspirational for our aspiring authors.”

The suggestion landed like a stone in my stomach. My success now threatened to create the kind of spotlight I'd specifically fled. The last thing I wanted was to stand before the entire student body performing the role of Literary Success Story while secretly questioning every choice that had built that narrative.

“That's very kind, but I'd rather focus on teaching for now,” I said, trying to keep my tone light. “Get my bearings before any public speaking.”

“Of course, of course,” Mrs. Greenfield agreed, though the gleam in her eye suggested she hadn't abandoned the idea. “But once you're settled, perhaps for National Library Week in April? Principal Rodriguez would love the community engagement opportunity.”

Marcus caught my eye across the table, a subtle shake of his head communicating that resistance was futile. I nodded noncommittally and steered the conversation toward curriculum planning, safer territory than my literary career.

As lunch ended and teachers dispersed to afternoon classes, Marcus pulled me aside in the hallway.

“Greenfield means well,” he said. “They all do. Small town, hometown success—it's catnip to them.”

“I know,” I sighed. “I just didn't come back to be paraded around as the local boy made good.”

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