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“I don’t know what you mean,” I pant against his lips, needing more but having no idea what that is. I’ve read enough romance novels to know what happens with sex, but how to act it out myself, nope, no clue.

Ender’s panting hard against my mouth as his wild eyes find mine. It happens then. His hands work my dress higher, gripping the sides of my thighs. I want so much for his hand to dip inside my panties. I want his fingers to meet my skin, the junction between my legs and see I’m no longer a naïve little girl.

Without words, he slides my hips forward to meet his. Oh my God. He’s… hard. It’s the first time I’ve everfelthim hard. “What I mean is”my center comes in complete, eager, contact with his“I can make you feel good, if you let me.”

I nod, kissing him with just as much desperation as he has. The hardness between his legs feels like sitting on a stick, and the more I move around on top of him, the quicker his breaths come.

He takes a firm hold on my hips and rocks his into mine. I’ve never seen him so out of control and impatient. “Does that feel good?” His voice is shaking, thick with desire.

I nod again, eager, a breathy “Yes” on my parted lips. “Is this dry humping?” I ask timidly into his lips.

He nods, a rough breath following as he grips my thighs tighter and drags me over his erection again. Ender kisses under my jaw. “God, I wanna fuck you so bad,” he growls, gripping me tighter and grinding harder into my hips. Fuck me? That means sex, right?Oh, who cares.

I can feel wetness between my legs, and I glide over his erection easier, a slickness present in my panties. My lungs tickle and I close my eyes, tipping my head back.

Ender’s mouth finds my neck, sucking eagerly. “You’d let me, wouldn’t you?’

“Yes,” I whisper, because like it or not, I trust this boy holding onto me. His cowboy hat is knocked off in the process and I arch up, desperate to leave my innocence behind.

“I can’t though.” His mouth finds mine and he sucks my lip. “Not you.”

“Why?”

I stop kissing him, but our movements don’t falter. The tickle in my throat gets stronger, and I search Ender’s hooded eyes. I smile, knowing these tiny grunts he’s giving me are what I’m doing to him. His legs twitch and his lashes flutter. Groaning, his forehead rests against mine. “I don’t know why.”

“We can…” My entire body starts shaking as Ender strains closer. I can feel the head of him through his shorts and the thin fabric of my bikini bottoms under my dress. “Keep doing this.”

Taking one hand from my leg, Ender wraps it around the back of my head and secures his mouth to mine, kissing me deeper. It’s as if he’s trying to kiss my begging from my lips.

“Does this feel good for you?” I ask, wondering if he’s getting the same sensations as me.

He nods, holding me tighter. “I could come like this. I’m just holding out for you, Hads.” His hips lift and he meets my rocking motions, harder. “Come for me.”

A newfound sheen of sweat covers my entire body. I think something is about to happen as I’m teetering on the edge, but my chest tickles. Turning my head to the side, I cough, unable to hold back the tickle in my throat.

That’s when I notice the freaking barn is on fire and we’ve completely ignored it.

Until smoke rises beside us and Walker comes running back in the barn. “Bro,” he yells. “You set the hay on fire.”

And that’s the end of my first dry hump.

19

WHEN ARYA TRIED TO TEACH ME

“Oh my God, Hads.” Arya grins. “Guess what happened last night?” Taking my hand, she drags me closer to the water and onto the dock, the sun shining in our eyes.

I laugh and slide my sunglasses up to get a better view, our bodies rocking with the motions of waves. “What?”

Grinning from ear to ear, she shows me her purple-pink mark and my eyes widen. “There’s more!” She lifts up her shirt to show me her stomach. Her eyes light up, crazy bright blues filled with excitement. “Look what he did to my stomach.” She touches the marks with her fingertips. “I think he bit me.”

“Who did that?”

“Carter!”

I blink. “Ender’s baseball friend?”

Arya nods, her eyes wide, smile even bigger. “Yep.”

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