She raised tear-stained eyes up at him, her chin resting against his chest.
“You’ve kil-killed be-fore?” she asked shakily.
She was breaking his heart. He gently touched her face and wiped away her tears.
“Yeah, I have.” More than he’d ever tell her. “I know the feeling, and I’ll help you through this, I promise.” He cupped her cheek, sweetly kissing the corners of her mouth. “Can you trust me to help you?”
She closed her eyes but nodded.
“Yes, I trust you...” A sob burst from her throat. Jessa tucked her chin down as her grip on him tightened. He continued to hold her, knowing her cleansing tears were the best thing for her.
He held her for a long time, just letting her cry, until the water started to cool. He turned off the water and wrapped a towel around her. He walked with her to the bed and sat down with her in his lap. The sobs continued, harshly shaking her body. She was going to make herself sick if she persisted.
He kept rubbing her back, murmuring to her soothingly.
Finally, she started to calm down, hiccupping but gaining control. He stretched, gathering several tissues and handing them to her. He watched her wipe her tears and blow her nose. After he tossed the Kleenex on the nightstand, he raised her chin. Her face was very red and puffy. Her eyes were almost swollen shut. But she’d never looked more beautiful to him. He lowered his head, gently kissing her, then pulled back.
He would do whatever he had to get the lost, almost desperate look off her face because he couldn’t take it any longer.
Chapter Forty-Five
Jessa raised an arm and curled it around his muscular neck.
“Make love to me, Cain. Please?”
“Oh, Jessa, Honey...”
“Please,” her voice almost desperate.
He didn’t need to hear her ask again, because he needed to be a part of her as much as she needed him. He laid her on the bed and followed her down. As he kissed her almost desperately, he touched as much of her as he could reach without releasing her. They both groaned when he speared two fingers into her tight, juicy cunt. He finger-fucked her until she withered beneath him.
He couldn’t get the image of what happened today out of his mind. The vision would forever be imprinted in his memory. They could have lost each other today. The thought brought tears to his own eyes.
He couldn’t take it another moment. He made a place for himself at the notch of her thighs, immediately pressing in, pushing until he had his cock in her to the hilt, and continuously watched her face for any discomfort.
Cain felt her body quiver with desire as he tilted her hips and pulled her toward him with his arms. He surrounded her, one hand going under her bottom to hold her pressed against him. The other held her head, connecting with her through his eyes as well as his body.
She was gorgeous, her wet hair in disarray, soaking in the pillow, her lips swollen and face flushed from passion and all the crying she had done. The craving in her eyes was drowning him in desire, pulling him deeper. She had become an essential part of his life, everything that was good in his world.
Cain thrust into her, faster and faster, pushing Jessa toward climax, but he could tell she was fighting it for some reason.
“I need more, Cain.”
He could tell she looked confused, but he understood what she was asking for. She needed a pinch of pain to get through the haze of terror she’d just gone through to be able to feel the pleasure he was giving her.
He pulled out of her and raised her legs. “Tell me if you feel any pain.”
She nodded and gripped his arms. She clung to him, never taking her eyes off him as he started to penetrate her ass.
He saw the tears that continued seeping out of the corners of her eyes, dripping onto her hair and the pillow beneath her head, but he knew none of it was from the discomfort of his penetration.
When he had shoved his whole cock into her, he used his thumb to wipe the tears, bending and licking the others, before fusing his mouth tightly against hers, pushing his tongue deep, tasting her sweetness.
Her eyes closed, and her body tightened under him. Her hips raised and pumped against his, showing him how desperate she’d become.
Jessa tore her mouth from his, screaming as she orgasmed.
His groan followed, his hips pounding against hers and his cock piercing the very depths of her ass. When he came down, he gathered her and turned, making sure he stayed inside her, not wanting to be apart from her yet. He pushed her long, tangled hair off her face.