Page 2 of A Wilderness Within

“Ten years,” Adam said. “Long time to serve together, brother.”

Lincoln nodded, still unable to speak. They weren’t brothers by blood, but they had been brothers in arms. Adam had taught him everything he knew. He was thirty-seven and had led their unit on over a hundred missions, saving the world a dozen times—not that it mattered now, because no one would be alive anymore to hear or care. Humanity was all but wiped out. Nature had reclaimed its bruised planet, and soon humanity would be but a dim memory in Earth’s history. Perhaps one best forgotten.

Adam coughed, a light dotting of blood covering his lips as he gripped a handgun. He tried to lift it, but his arm collapsed back to his chest.

“Afraid you’ll have to do the honors.” Adam managed a wry smile, but Lincoln shook his head.

“No…I can’t…” He’d had to do this for too many others, but for Adam, he couldn’t stomach it.

Adam’s gray eyes hardened. “You can. You have to.” He drew in a shaky breath. “You owe me. I don’t want to waste away like the others. Don’t make me pull rank.”

Lincoln’s eyes snapped back to his friend’s face. The last two years they had been in Washington, DC, while Adam had moved up in the ranks and politics. It was how they had ended up here in the bunker after all. Not that it had saved them. But Adam always joked about pulling rank whenever Lincoln tried to resist orders.

“Don’t you fucking bring that up now,” Lincoln said. His vision blurred as he tried to swallow down the knot of emotions raging inside him.

“You have your orders, Major.” Adam shifted the gun on his chest.

Lincoln reached out and took the gun, checking the chamber. The action was instinctive after so many years, but a chill crept over him when his brain caught up with his actions and the significance of what he was about to do became clear.

Adam watched him, the war of fear and sorrow on his face now softened to a peacefulness Lincoln hadn’t ever seen before.

“You know what to do, Lincoln.”

But he didn’t. No one had ever trained him to kill his best friend.

“Once I’m gone, get out of here. Don’t stay in the bunker. If you want to die, die in the open with the sky above you. At least topside, you’ve got a chance to survive.” They’d talked about it, the way they would end it, if it ever came to that. The blue sky above would be the way to go, not trapped here beneath the ground.

“I could take you up there.” Lincoln tried not to choke on the words. “Before…”

Adam shook his head, the faint move barely there. “No. I’d only spread the disease. Better to seal me down here with the others.”

Lincoln nodded numbly. Adam had stayed here, manning the communication room as other outposts dropped off the comms one by one, everyone hoping a cure would be found before the end came. Last week Adam had started showing signs of infection. They had believed they were both immune since the last man to die had been five weeks ago, but for whatever reason, Adam had fallen ill. But he’d stayed on the radio each day for just a few minutes, broadcasting when he could, listening for any other signal. He’d never given up hope. But Lincoln knew there was none. After this, he would be alone.

Adam’s face contorted with pain. “Better do it now.” The virus inside him would bleed him out, then dehydrate what was left. It was an agonizing death.

Raising the gun, Lincoln aimed it at Adam’s head, but his hands started to shake. Adam closed his eyes.

“Do it!”

The harsh military tone snapped Lincoln into focus, and he pulled the trigger. The loud report made his ears ring, and the heavy silence that followed grew into a deafening roar. The tiny red, white, and blue flag pinned to Adam’s chest gleamed in the light. Lincoln removed the pin, slipped it into his backpack, and laid the pistol on Adam’s chest. There was no need to bury him, no need to remove him from this final resting place. Lincoln stood to attention as he saluted Adam one final time.

“It has been an honor to serve and protect you, Mr. President.” He knew those may very well be the last words he would ever speak to another person. He should have said them before…but if he’d dared to, might not have had the strength to pull the trigger.

He stood there for a long moment, his mind mercifully blank with grief, and he let the dark, agonizing emotion rip through him like a tidal wave. The silence haunted him, whispering softly in his head about the days before…the days when the world was still alive, when he could see children play and the bustle of the cities and the sunsets on farmhouse porches. There had been so much to love, so much to enjoy.

Now it was all gone and so was Adam, his brother in arms, his best friend. Hope’s last wellspring had vanished with him.

There’s nothing for me in the world now.

But a man couldn’t die from grief alone, no matter how hard he might want to.

He turned and walked away.

At the bunker’s exit, he climbed up the steps and cranked the wheel that released the seal and locks on the latch and pushed it open. Bright sunlight poured into the darkness of the bunker. Lincoln shielded his eyes for a moment as his eyes adjusted. Fresh air surrounded him, the scent of prairie grasses and trees teasing his nostrils. He climbed out and closed the hatch behind him. An open meadow stretched endlessly in one direction, and a light wooded area spread in the other direction. Prairie wind rustled the grasses, and he suddenly felt homesick in a way he hadn’t in years.

But home was gone, as was everything else. It was possible he was the last man on earth, and it was only a matter of time before death claimed him too.

He started walking, the distant vision of the cityscape far ahead of him. Would there be any other survivors? Would he even be able to help them? He’d killed his best friend, the last leader of the free world. Whoever might be left in this dying land wouldn’t want his help. He was a murderer of a good man, a lost soul. Lincoln let go and chose to embrace the wilderness and the darkness inside him.

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