“I don’t know!” I groan, covering my face with my hands. “This is mortifying.”
“Evie.” Xar’s voice is quiet but firm. “You don’t have to be embarrassed. We’re learning you. That’s what this is. Not a test.”
Dane reaches out, resting his hand on my knee. “If you want us to try things, we can. And if you want to stop or slow down at any point, all you have to do is say the word. We’ll respect whatever you need.”
“What should our stop word be?” Blaise asks. “Something not too common.”
“Maybe...orchid?” I offer, voice small.
He winks. “Perfect.”
Xar nods. “Alright. No bonding until you’re clear-headed. Nothing without your full consent. Andorchidif anything feels wrong.”
I let out a long breath. “Thank you. For doing this. For being...good.”
Blaise grins. “We’re more than good, love. We’re going to make you feel like a goddess.”
Heat creeps up my spine again, but this time, I let it linger.
Blaise leans in again, eyes sparkling with mischief. “Okay, now that we’ve got a safe word sorted…we’re not done.”
Xar groans, rubbing his temples. “You’re enjoying this way too much.”
“Mate, I’m trying to beresponsible,” Blaise says, all mock innocence. “So, Evie, let’s get into the details.”
I bite my lip, heart thundering. “Details?”
“Yeah.” He ticks off on his fingers. “Spanking?”
My face goes crimson. “Um…maybe? Not hard. Not…cruel. But like…playfully?”
Blaise nods approvingly. “Good answer. Hair pulling?”
My mouth is so dry. “Gentle? If you’re behind me and I’m okay with it.”
Xar’s jaw tightens slightly, but his expression is unreadable. He doesn’t speak, just listens.
“Biting?” Blaise adds.
I shift a little. “Yes,” I admit. “If it’s not too much. I think I’d like that.”
He leans forward, tone gentler. “What about oral? Do you want to be eaten out?”
“Blaise!” Dane warns, but I stop him with a raised hand.
“It’s okay,” I whisper. “Yes. I mean, yes, I want that. I really, really want that.”
“And giving?” Blaise asks. “You’ve already—” he glances at Dane, then back at me, “—been with me, but if you want to try that with the others…”
“I do,” I say quietly. “I want to. I want to learn. I wantyouto show me.”
Dane clears his throat, but there’s a smile tugging at his lips. Xar still hasn’t moved, but the heat in his gaze speaks volumes.
“Anal?” Blaise asks delicately. “Fingers, mouth…anything more?”
My whole body tenses. “Not yet,” I say. “Maybe someday. But not…now. I don’t think…”
“Noted,” Blaise says, voice softer than before. “We’ll keep clear unless you ever say otherwise. What about more than one of us at a time?”