Page 144 of Niccolo

Before we’d even kissed –

Part of me was like,You asshole!

And another part of me was like,Ohhhhh…

I guess I kind of like assholes…

I’d never been so attracted toanyone,EVER.

To be honest, I was afraid of Niccolo, too –

Which only heightened the attraction.

I was also incredibly nervous, what with this being my first time.

I’d always figured losing my virginity would be like moving to a new apartment: when it was time, I’d get around to it.

It seemed like I’d finally gotten around to it.

And if there was anyone I wanted to do it with my first time, Niccolo was the number one choice. There was no second.

Iknewit would be stupid to be alone with him. There would be nothing stopping him from murdering me – especially not after we left a crowded room filled with hundreds of witnesses.

However…

After he did that sillyCosa Nostra‘swear on something holy’ thing…

I believed him.

Which is stupid, I know…

Especially after everything I’d seen from Fausto…

But there was something different about Niccolo.

He won me over when he said he couldn’t promisenotto kill me.

At first it alarmed me –

But when he laid out his reasoning, that one day it might be a choice between my life or his brothers’ lives…

I could understand.

And the fact that hewouldn’tblithely promise just for convenience sake?

It made me believe him when he actuallydidswear not to harm me.

I trusted him…

Which was more than I could say for any other man I’d ever known.

And then he had to go and answer his damn phone.

I wanted to strangle him.

He had me all worked up and horny for the first time in my life –

And then he yanked it all away.

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