Page 34 of Forsaken

Although, with how Nathan is acting, I’m not sure his wolf would be able to handle seeing Sean and me together, sleeping in our own house.

If I could trust anybody with what’s going on, I would want them to study Nathan and see why he is so protective of me when I’m not even his fated.

When Alice’s mate’s car disappears from view, the four of us disperse. Sean will be picking me up in an hour, so I head toward my room to get ready. Might as well look the part of the mate who’s trying to win hers back, even when I’m planning on backstabbing him.

After everything he’s done to me, I wish I could stop thinking of it like that.

Nathan watches me as I walk up the stairs, and I bite my lip at his intense stare. I enjoy the way he watches me—as if he’s waiting in the wings to pounce whenever he can. It reminds me of when Sean and I were first paired. Even though he sent me away, I’d have scintillating dreams about him. I’ve never flicked the bean so much in my life.

I have to admit, it’s better with a partner who worships you. In his eyes, I can do nothing wrong.

I enter my room, the outfit I picked for the party is on my bed. We all wore our Greystone uniforms, at the behest of the alpha’s office, to see Alice off, but I certainly won’t be wearing that tonight. I peel off my shirt and skirt, then my undergarments, before stepping into the bathroom. I start the shower, waiting for it to heat up. As soon as the mirror starts to fog, I step inside. Earlier, Nathan and I went for a run to release some energy, so a layer of dirt and sweat currently circles the drain.

Whatever happens tonight, I plan on looking hot. For Nathan. I want to drive him wild. I want him to not be able to think straight. He keeps saying how much he wants to fuck me, but it never seems like the right time. Tonight, hopefully we’ll celebrate with some evidence and some dick.

I pile my wet hair on top of my head, letting the shower spray run down my neck and back. Eyes closed, I soak up the warmth of the water caressing every inch of my skin. There’s a slight shift in the air before I feel a press of lips against the spot where my neck meets my shoulder. I freeze as Nathan’s essence engulfs me.

“Are you crazy?” I ask, leaning into him because it’s one thing to tell him how dangerous this is but it’s another to crave it, too.

“Yes,” he breathes. “I heard the shower kick on, and I couldn’t think straight.”

My core pulses with heat and a need so deep it scares me. “Nathan, what’s happening to us?”

He turns me around. I have a split second to notice he’s as naked as I am before he backs me against the wall of the shower. “What’s happening? What’s happening is that the two of us are so right for each other, we transcend fate. And mate law. And everything we thought we knew.” He passes his thumb over my cheekbone. “We’re not together because someone told us to be. We’re together because we built a bond through friendship. And then it went deeper and deeper.”

I melt at his words. Attraction to Nathan was always a given—physically and mentally. I’ve loved him as a friend. We’ve cried together, laughed together, were angry together. We were so in sync that I didn’t notice the other aspect until it snuck up on us when we kissed in my room. But it was like shooting off a firecracker. The sparks fizzled around us until there was pure electricity zinging through the air. It’s the same right now.

“I don’t give a damn about mate laws, Mia. Mark my words. You’re mine, and no one else can have you.”

“I thought you said by any means necessary?”

He tilts my head back and sucks on my neck. “That was before. If he touches you, I’ll kill him. If you go Feral, I’ll kill him.”

“Your points contradict each other.”

He drops a heated kiss over my collarbone before sliding his fingers up the backside of my thigh, hitching my leg up his muscular one. “Not in my world.”

When we shifted earlier, we played like I imagined. We ran, we hunted, we were so in sync. My wolf was happy, and I was happier.

He was right when he called it a bond. A real one. One made from reality and not from the stars.

“In your world, do mates suck on tits?”

His eyes darken, and he slowly licks his lips. Moving his stare down, a low rumble vibrates from his chest.

He steps back, taking me in for the first time. Everywhere he looks, my skin blooms with heat. He watches so long, I get fidgety. “What are you doing?”

“Taking mental notes.”

Now that he mentions it, my own gaze drops to his straining cock. The head bobs in front of him, thick with tension. He hasn’t let me touch him once, even though I’m dying to. He’s worried he won’t be able to stop himself if he claims me sexually. The last thing we want is for him to go all possessive mate on me in public. For us, that would be a very bad thing. So bad, I don’t even want to think about the consequences.

“This is torture,” he breathes. “I don’t know why I do this to myself.” Stepping forward, he bends low, finally taking my nipple into his mouth. I let out a gasp, then suck it all in, pressing my lips together so no one hears us. He bites down playfully, flicking his tongue over the erect bud in harsh swipes that has me arching into him. Primal need slams into me, and I moan. It comes out guttural with my clenched jaw. With his lips still around my tit, Nathan peers up at me.

“Fuck,” I whisper, mentally snapping a shot. At least I’ll have this memory no matter what happens. Whether I’m in the woods by myself or in a house with Sean.

I reach out, digging my thumbs into his Adonis belt, and pull him toward me, his cock brushing against my belly button. Now that he’s closer, I search for his cock, but he bats my hand away. “I won’t be able to control myself,” he tells me. “You can’t.”

I whine, but he cuts me short when he moves to my other breast, clutching the swell in his hand and devouring it with his hot mouth. My toes curl, and my hips start working, rolling, searching for something I just can’t have right now. “One day, I’m going to ride you,” I tell him, my voice so thick with want that I hardly recognize it. “I’m going to ride you so hard.”

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