Page 127 of His Lucky Blessing

After closing shop, I headed to pick the kids up from the babysitter and get dinner started. Juggling running businesses and being a mom was hard, but I made the shit look easy. Kani was a good child and so was Jason. It was Lucky’s week to have him so I helped as much as I could. It took him a minute to get used to me but now that everything was good, he wasn’t afraid of me anymore. I apologized to his mother and him for my behavior. I jumped the gun and didn’t know the situation.

I considered everything everyone was saying about me and grew from it. I started seeing a therapist myself so I could work out some of my own issues. Merci and I even attended a few together. She was my sister, but we had shit to work out too. It made my life better. As crazy as it may sound, I refused to be with a man until I got myself together. Lucky was happy about the shit only because he didn’t want to see me with anyone else but him.

“I appreciate you for getting the kids. I got busy with a client and let the time slip away,” Lucky greeted me with a kiss.

Now let me clear it up, we are not together but we worked this shit so well that most people thought we were still together. We both wanted what was best for our kids and if that meant we sat down and ate dinner together every night, then so be it. Lucky’s face was the first and last thing my son saw at night. It worked for us.

“It’s cool. I had plenty of time today. How was your day?”

“Long as fuck but I think I finally got the city to jump on board with this new school.”

“I think that’s a dope ass idea you came up with. It will give kids a chance to do something other than sit and be lectured to all day.”

Lucky came up with the idea of opening a trade school for teenagers to become certified in a field of their choice. This was for all the students that typically hated the routine of public school, so they dropped out to make money. His vision was to have GED instructors there for a few hours and then they would go straight into their trade for the rest of the day. It was different and I knew it would get some of our kids off the streets. Especially if they knew they could get a decent paying job right after getting certified.

“You know any cosmetology students that need hours can come up there with me and my crew.”

“I may get you to come and talk to them when this shit happens. Who else to talk to the boys about barbering than the top barber herself?”

“Don’t flatter me,” I rolled my eyes at him.

“You can’t take a nigga still complimenting you, can you?”

“Back up off me and go wash your hands. Tell the kids they can come and eat.”

The attraction between us was still there but while I was learning and growing, I was refraining from sex. Now I wasn’t crazy, I knew Lucky was sleeping with someone but what could I do? We weren’t together and as long as he was respectful when my son was with him, I didn’t care. He tried several times to sleep with me but I was determined to love myself first. I was damaged from my relationship with Khi and jumped into a quick ass relationship with Lucky. It was time for me to learn how to love myself without it involving a man.

Lucky cleaned the kitchen while I got the boys ready for bed. Jason showered and everything here and Lucky would wait for him to fall asleep before he picked him up and carried down two floors to his condo. Yes, Lucky downgraded to a condo so he could be a father. Let him tell it, he didn’t want to buy another house until he could have his family under one roof.

“You need me to do anything else?”

“No, I appreciate your help.”

“I’m going to see Kason tomorrow. I know you went the other day, but I thought maybe we could finally go together for once. It’s his birthday and I feel like we need to take Kani.”

I stood at the window watching the traffic on 285. The reason I went to my son's gravesite last week was due to me not wanting to deal with it on his birthday. It did mean a lot that he was willing to go faithfully. Whenever I went, I never had to clean anything off and he kept fresh flowers there. All I had to do was go and pay my respects. Lucky came and stood on the side of me and wrapped his arm around me.

“I’m really sorry. I think it’s time we start doing this shit together instead of separate. I feel like it’s what’s keep the distance between us. Let’s see if taking our son there for the first time can bring us closer. I’ll come and get you from work. I don’t have anything to do tomorrow so once I drop Jason off at school, it will be me and Kani until then.”

“I don’t know if I’m ready to go there with you.”

“It’s past time. If Kason was here right now, he’ll tell you how cool I was. I spend just as much time with him as you do. It’s time to do it together.”

Lucky turned me around so I could face him. I had forgiven him a while ago for what he did but that didn’t mean it was easy to deal with when special occasions came up.

“I know you doing this whole self-care shit you on and I’m loving it, but you still got that damn wall up and I’m breaking that bitch down when it comes to Kason. I still wish it was me instead of him. One day our son is going to ask us who is the little boy in those pictures and I’mma have to be a man and tell him what the fuck I did. I’m ashamed of it but I’ll never hide from what the fuck I did. I just wanna get beyond this point with you.”

“I’ll see you tomorrow. I have a break between noon and three. After you can take me to my favorite restaurant so I can spend up your money.”

“Shit, you ain’t said shit.” He slapped my ass before letting me go.

I stood up from behind my oak desk and shook the hands of the mayor. He came to sit with my ghetto ass about this school that I wanted to build. Technically, I had the bitch built already and was just waiting to change the contract name on it and start furnishing it once he gave me the okay. He was shocked to see someone like me standing behind an idea none of them could come up with.

“Please, have a seat. Can I get you something to drink?” I asked him as I grabbed myself a bottle of water.

“No, thank you. It’s nice to finally meet the man behind this brilliant idea.”

“It’s been on my mind for a while now. It took me a little while to get the idea from my head onto paper.”

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