Page 36 of Ravage

"I get the impression I've pissed you off, so why don't you cut the dramatics and tell me what's wrong?" he replies, looking far less affected than I'd like.

This man is on my shit list now, too. Luckily for both of us, I can fuck him while hating him.

"Did you, or did you not, go with Connell to see Cam last Sunday?"

He shrugs. "Yes. I was thanking him for his help with the woman who injured herself."

"Pretty sure that could have just been a phone call. You didn't need to meet with him. You certainly didn't need to speak to him about me."

"Ah, so that's what this is about?" He shifts to rest his elbows on his knees. "Cam told you I asked him why you'd been so upset after you fucked him?"

I go still. "No, Cam did not. All I knew was that I'd been a topic of conversation. How did you know I had sex with him?"

Sebastian shakes his head. "I put two and two together when he reacted at the mention of your name. And then he told me his side of the interaction. Seems you've confused both of us with your reaction to something that you usually wouldn't have batted an eyelid at." He studies me closely, those intense blue eyes demanding answers.

I swallow. "I didn't bat an eyelid. We fucked. Whatever."

Sebastian's eyes narrow. "No, no. You started this with your little tantrum. So you don't get to pretend that nothing bothered you last Friday night."

It takes a lot to piss off Sebastian, but it seems I've done it now.

I sigh. "It was nothing, okay? It was just... it was very intense, and it may have stirred up some feelings. That's all. He didn't hurt me."

"Feelings? What kind of feelings?"

I groan. "I don't know, okay?! Just... feelings."

"How very unfortunate for you, Imogen. To have actual feelings." His voice is dripping with sarcasm, and it pisses me off all over again.

"Hey, you're one to talk!"

His jaw tenses. "And what exactly is that supposed to mean?"

"You are all about control. You don't show any emotion, and Icertainly have never seen you get 'feelings'," I reply, using air quotes.

"While I understand that this is all very confusing for you, I don't think I'm the one you're really angry with right now. We both know I'm capable of emotions, as you have witnessed many times. But if I felt them during sex, it would throw me right off, too. So stop being dramatic about it and look inwards to work out why that might be." He holds my gaze, and it feels like I'm being told off by a parent.

I sigh, dropping my head back against the chair. "What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't do feelings."

He smiles. "You were married for several years. You do feelings, Imogen. And there is nothing wrong with that. Just because you and I can fuck without emotion doesn't mean you'll feel the same when sleeping with others. Might I suggest actually getting to know Cam? Rather than running away from your attraction to him?"

I purse my lips. "Just because I caught feelings doesn't mean he did, too. And I sure as fuck am not running after a man."

Sebastian chuckles as he shakes his head. "Imogen, he has been staring at you since you stormed over here. I highly doubt he wasn't affected by the experience. So, stop acting like a child and talk to the man."

I refuse to follow his gaze towards where Cam is standing talking to some of Connell's rugby mates, but I know he's right. I've felt his eyes on me ever since I walked away.

"I'm not a child."

"I'm well aware you aren't, because the stuff we've done together would be very illegal otherwise. I said you were acting like one. Which is not the Imogen I know. It shows just how much you want to explore things with him, and it scares the absolute crap out of you."

I groan. "I hate you."

He chuckles, crossing his arms. "Another lie, and we bothknow it." He jerks his head. "Go and talk to that very attractive paramedic and put both of you out of your misery." He gets to his feet and gives my shoulder a gentle squeeze as he walks past. "You might realise there's more to life than simply fucking for a release."

I watch him walk away, frowning.

That last little jibe was unnecessary and has me wondering what feelings he's avoiding himself.

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