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YOUAREMINE!…Thosewords are what have led me to whereIam now.Idon’t thinkI’veever felt so much at once.Onemoment,I’mriding out one of the most intense orgasms of my life, only to be humiliated two seconds later.Totop it all off, theCommandergot to witness me doing the walk of shame asIwas running down the ramp after being called in so many words … a gold-digging whore byMeK’smother.

Thisday was supposed to be fun and relaxing.Instead, it’s turned into something my mind can’t comprehend.Themoment his mother walked in,MeKturned off just like you’d flip a switch.Hiseyes became solid black, and his runes dulled, suppressing all his emotions.Evenwith his release running down my legs,Idon’t think he was really seeing me anymore.Ihad simply become an object no longer needed.

‘God, what haveIdone?’Tearsflow down my face and the sad part is,Ihave no one to blame but myself.I’venever felt this ashamed or worthless before, and the fact thatI’veallowed someone to have that kind of power over me just shows how ignorantIam.Papawtold me over and over, ‘Donot putyourself in situations you have no way out of.’Ashis words echo in my mind,Idon’t think that spreading my legs for an alien who has never seen me as anything more than a primitive, ignorant being was something he was truly trying to warn me about. “Papaw,Isure wishIhad your strong arms to hold me right now and tell me this is all going to be ok.”ButIdon’t.Nomatter how many timesIwish it was different,Iam alone.

Ittakes me a second to figure out whereIam, asIusually don’t wander around any of the other landing zones that the dropships are not in.Shakingmy head at my ignorance and not knowing exactly which way to go,Isee the perimeter fence ahead.Dryingmy eyes,IknowIneed to get back to the beach, and that the wall stops right before the enchanted forest.Walkingin a daze, eventuallyI’vegone far enough away from the ships thatIcan no longer see them, … only to stop.

IfIshow up at the beach now, especially after that confrontation betweenMeKandEricearlier, whichIknow everyone saw, not only willIhave to explain where this oversized jumpsuit came from, but also whyIno longer have a bathing suit.IknowBriarwill notice all of this immediately andIcan already see the questions in her eyes before she ever opens her mouth.Idon’t know ifIcan stand there knowing the moment everyone sees me, they’ll realize whatI’vedone and how quicklyIwas discarded.

I’mso out of it thatIdon’t even realizeI’mbarefoot untilIcatch my toe on a root.Withoutany other choice,Ikeep walking only to suddenly realize whenIcome to the end of the fence thatI’vegone in the complete opposite direction thanIshould have.Lookingaround,Ican tell this part is not finished and must be whereMeKsaid the maintenance bots had run out of materials.Leaningagainst the last pole,Iclose my eyes, wondering whatI’vedone to deserve this day, and then just thinking his name brings a new set of tears to my eyes.

HowdidIallow myself to get into this situation?WhatdidIreally think was going to happen when he carried me away from the beach?Ialready knew he was going to leave when this was over, and he never promised me anything.DidIhonestly believe he would give up everything he’d ever worked for … for me?Agirl with nothing to offer besides herself.God,I’man idiot!Crumblingto the ground, sobbing so hardIcan barely breathe,Iswear,Ican still feel his hands on me and the rough sound of my name over and over as he thrusts that puss destroyer in and out of me.

Finally, my tears run out andIfeel strangely numb inside.Thechaos caused by this one event has practically destroyed all the wistful dreamsIhad for the future here.Andto sayIwould be unconsolable ifItold anyone is an understatement.IknowIcould never withstand the whispers and the snide looks.Suddenly,Irealize no one besides the people in that room really knows what happened, and ifIhave any say, that’s how it will remain.IfMeKwants to pretendI’mnothing and what we did meant nothing, then so be it.I’llnot allow him or any other man to ever make me feel like this again.PerhapsIwas too trusting andImade a mistake, but it won’t happen again.I’mDONE!

Comingto that decision,Iknow the first thingIneed to do is get back toANDIbefore anyone else does.Butdammit, all the dropships returned for repairs earlier.Theonly other placeIcan think of that might have a change of clothes is the medical facility, butVedecemay not have received any yet, as she just added clothes to her list.Still,Ihave to check.IfIcan find something more appropriate to wear,I’lltellBriarthatMeKandIgot into an argument and thatIwas uncomfortablewalking around in a bikini.That’snot really lying sinceIwas uncomfortable in it.

Pickingmyself up off the ground,I’mwiping the tears from my face whenIhear a faint whimper further inside the woods.Stoppingto look around,I’mjust about to leave whenIhear what sounds like a kitten crying.Slowly,Istep past the last pole, scanning the area, butIdon’t see anything.Makingsure to keep the post in sight,Iwalk a little further into the forest.Itseems like every aspect of this planet is different.Wherethe houses are being installed, the undergrowth was remarkably clear.Here, it’s brushy and darker; it even smells damp and moldy.

I’mabout to turn around when it cries out again.Thistime,Ihear it clearly.Ifind thatI’vealready moved a few steps toward it whenIsuddenly stop.Whatif this is a trap?I’veseen this on theDiscoveryChannel.Couldthis be a sound something is using to lure prey away from safety?ThemoreIthink about it, the more absurd that sounds— hell, we just got here.Theanimals don’t even know to fear us yet.

Thenext cry is so pitiful thatIdisregard my own inner warnings. “Here, kitty, kitty … come on out,Iwon’t hurt you.”Stoppingto listen,Ihear something moving through the brush in front of me.Slowlymaking my way forward,Isee the kitten beforeInotice its huge mother lying on her side in front of it.Realizingjust how large that animal is,Istart to step back as quietly as possible until the little one sees me and pounces my way.Itslarge paws land on my leg and then its claws bite into my skin as it climbs my jumpsuit before settling on my shoulder.

Standingstill,Imove my head just enough to see the kitten panting hard, looking all around as if it’s scared of something, andI’vebecome its safe spot.Liftingmy hand,Ilet it sniff my fingers beforeIslowly pet the top of its black-spotted head.Thisentire time,I’vebeen watching the mother out of the corner of my eye.Ican see this turning bad quickly, as there is nothing more aggressive than a mother defending her baby.

Thekitten leans heavily against my head, and that’s whenInotice that the mother is not moving at all.Eventhough mySpideysenses tell meI’mjust continuing to walk the path of a dumbass today,Iwalk a little closer, only to scream whenIsee the ground literally open up and swallow that big ass cat whole.Twoseconds later, you would never have known it was even there.Confused,Igrab the kitten a little more securely and start walking backward, watching the ground all around me the entire time asIexpect it to reopen and swallow me at any time.

Thekitten squirms on my shoulder, only to jump off the momentImove my hand.Instantly, it’s back over where its mother was, sniffing the ground.BeforeIrealize whatI’mdoing,I’verun over and grabbed it up off the ground, holding it securely against my chest in case the ground suddenly decides it needs a small kitty snack.Becausemy nerves are shot,Ican’t stop the scream that leaves my lips whenIhear a voice suddenly behind me.

“Lacie, if you’d told me that you wanted to keep us a secret from everyone else,Iwould’ve been fine with that.Youdidn’t need to sneak out here.”Iactually close my eyes, wondering whatI’vedone to deserve everything that has happened to me today.Turning,Ifind him leaning against a tree with a smug look on what should have been an attractive face.

“Howdid you find me,Eric?”

“Lacie, now, now … don’t act like you don’t knowIwork this part of the perimeter fence.Ricky,Owen, andIall still had to patrol today, but theCommandergave us a few hours off for the celebration that you ruined for me.Afteryour alien protectorhauled you off like some kind of war prize,Idecided not to stay, butIhad no idea you were going to be waiting for me out here.”

“Eric,Ididn’t come out here because of you.Iheard this kitten crying and decided to see ifIcould find him.”

“You’rejust coming up with excuses now because you don’t want to seem too eager.Isaw you looking around for me before you stepped into the forest, knowing this place would give us some of the privacy we both want.Andby the way, that ain’t no kitten … that’s aSuet, and he will be larger than you when full grown.”Whenhe steps closer to me, the kitten hisses at him.Rubbinghis soft, but odd fur,Ipull him closer.Hispointed ears twitch against my nose as he rubs his head against mine.

Tryingto change the subject,Istart moving away from him. “Didyou see what just happened here?Theground just opened up and swallowed that big ass cat whole.”

“Ididn’t, butRickysaw something similar a few days ago.Eventhough you can’t see them right now, there are small birds high up in the timbers that normally only fly down to this level a few times a day.Hesaid he saw one fall, obviously dead, and then the ground opened after a little bit.Scaredthe hell out of him.Ifyou think about it, … it’s almost like this moon is taking back what it’s cared for all this time.”

Allof a sudden, his facial expression changes, and it’s like looking at a whole different person.

“YouknowLacie,Ireally don’t like seeing you dressed in that alien’s clothes, or the fact that you didn’t fight him when he carried you off earlier.”Hekeeps walking closer to me, andIswear he’s getting angrier by the second.Justby the look on his face,IknowIneed to play this carefully.

“Eric,I… found this jumpsuit in one of the crates, and how do you fight something that large?I’mnot a man, and you had already walked off.Iwas alone.”Bythis time,Ericis only a few feet away, his body literally shaking in anger.

“Youlet him fuck you, didn’t ya?Youare my girl, and you let that glowing bastard stick his cock inside you!”

“What! …Whodo you think you are?WhatIdo with my body is none of your businessEric, andI’msure as hell not your girl.Now, if you don’t mind,I’mgoing to head back to the beach with everyone else.”

“No, you’re not!You’regoing to stop teasing me and give me a taste of what you’ve been flaunting in front of me.”

“Eric,Ihave no idea what you’re talking about.I’venever led you on.”

“Oh, you’ve tried to play hard to get, butIalways get whatIwant, andIknew the momentIlaid eyes on you that you were the only one for me.Now, you either take that jumpsuit off yourself, orI’lldo it for you.”

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