Page 5 of From Angel to Rogue

But that wasn’t the case now.

She looked so small and vulnerable that it was breaking my heart, but at the same time, I felt betrayed knowing that’s what she thought of me.

From the moment I met her at fourteen, everything I did, I did only for her.

My Katy was that important to me, but now I wonder if I was the same for her?

Because you didn’t lie so easily to someone you love, right?

All she talked about when we were kids was how much she wanted to have babies, and move into a big house, and be the mother they deserved, and now that was impossible for her.For us.

“When did you find out?” I asked.

“Six years ago,” she whispered, clutching her heart.

Hurt sliced my heart in heated pangs. “And you think I didn’t deserve to know? All these fucking years you’ve been hiding this from me?” Anger and pain laced with my blood.

But something in her eyes made me still. They were cast low, shining with shame. A painful breath left my lips and my feet took me right back to her.

“You don’t ever have to be ashamed of something like that, Katy.” I cradled her cheeks. “It won’t ever,everchange the way I feel for you. I love you so, so much, angel.You.Every single thing aboutyou.”

“I know,” she mumbled.

“Then why didn’t you tell me? Why did you feel the need to hide?”

“Because… because I was scared. Iamscared.”

“Scared?” My brows furrowed. “Scared about what?”

“Scared that you’ll leave me, Lan.” Her panicked eyes landed on me. “Scared that you’ll realize I’m not worth it after all.”

“Is that really what you think of me, Katy? That I would fucking abandon you for something like that?” I gritted out through my teeth, gripping her jaw. “After all these years? I agreed to every fucking thing you said. I waited for you. I fucking joined this band for you. I said yes to LA for you. Everything I did, I did for you, Katy. And now you question my love for you?” My voice broke, matching the same shattering sound of my insides breaking.

Those guilty green eyes clouded with unshed tears. “It’s not like that, Lan. I know you love me, and I love you more thananything in this world. But sometimes love is not enough. You don’t understand. You wouldn’t understand. I… I have to be this way.”

“Be what way, Katy?” I brought her eyes to me.

She swallowed but didn’t say a thing and I was tired. So damn tired.

Falling in love with my angel was the best fucking decision of my life and that would never change.

But that boy thought by now life would only be so much better, thought that we would’ve grown and built a beautiful life together. I wasn’t talking about white picket fences or barefoot in the kitchen or screaming crying babies. I was talking about our connection, our love growing stronger, deeper,happier…

But right now, it was anything but that.

Even though our hearts were on the same plane, there was a growing wall between us, full of prickly thorns like those from her favorite flowers.

I didn’t know when it happened, but somewhere along the way, it did.

With her busy schedule getting busier, with her canceling dates to hang out with her fake friends, her dressing to appease the new fashion trend, her chasing perfection, her becoming the shell of a girl who I fell in love with at fifteen.

But it only made me love her more because I thought this was what made her happy, but now, I questioned it. I questioned everything about her. Everything aboutus.

But I just couldn’t take the look in those sad, wide eyes anymore, so I closed my lips to hers, and a surprised gasp stumbled from her lips to mine.

I was sweaty and hot, but I didn’t give a fuck. It’s been too fucking long. The softness of her lips felt like I was coming back home, and I didn’t want to ever stop kissing her.

I had no clue when was the last time I kissed her, the last time I fucked her…

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