Page 104 of The Bad Mother's Diary

Bloody village co-op supermarket doesn’t sellanything.

It had sold out of all fresh vegetables (except a few dirty carrots) and didn’t stock tofu or lentils.

It had a massive range of Angel Delight (in flavours I never even heard of. Mint? Treacle?), Dream Topping and basically everything you need to make a trifle. It even sold ready-made trifles in the fridge section. But I didn’t want trifle. I wanted healthy baby food.

I asked Pauline at the checkout when there’d be any fresh veg coming in.

She said, ‘Oh Lord knows. I always shop at Tesco.’

2pm

Went to Tesco.

Got ingredients.

Cooked and pureed Lentil Savoury Bake for Daisy’s tea.

I made enough for the whole week and froze it in those little weaning pots.

7pm

Daisy wouldn’t eat the Lentil Savoury. She spat it out then made retching noises at the spoon.

Mum tried to feed her too.

She said, ‘Open up, you fussy monkey. Your mum’s spent all day cooking this healthy crap.’

When Daisy refused, Mum said, ‘Well I can’t say I blame her. It looks like something you’d find in her nappy. Why don’t you give her one of those pouch meals?’

I finally cracked and gave Daisy a pouch of Banana Breakfast.

She ate the whole lot in under a minute, making smacking noises and sucking hopefully at the empty packet.

I don’t want to throw away all my carefully prepared Lentil Savoury. But at the same time, it does look disgusting.

I’ll throw it out tomorrow.

Tuesday October 13th

Mum threw out my Lentil Savoury Bake.

I am absolutely furious!

She’d just come back from Iceland (to buy frozen pizzas, mini kievs and chicken nuggets ‘for Callum’ – but she eats them too) and needed to make room in the freezer.

I need to start thinking about getting my own place. It’s impossible to eat healthily here.

Mum has this special popcorn recipe where she can get a whole pack of butter into the pan.

Thursday October 15th

Got a mega-period today. Ten months without any period at all and then it’s like ten months at once.

Lucky I didn’t throw out those jumbo sanitary towels.

I’d forgotten about periods. That at least was one good thing about being pregnant.

Friday October 16th

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