Page 36 of Beyond Repair: Part One

My eyebrows are still in my hairline. "W-what? Why are you telling me this?"

Honestly, I’m not sure what's happening. I just spilled the beans about my embarrassing doctor’s visit and now we're talking about Trevor's sexual preferences. I'm not naïve, even if I am a virgin. Thankfully, my sexual side is fully functioning sincethat's the only part of me that wasn't abused or taken advantage of.

Have I thought about the guys inthatway? Yes. Since I was a teen and haven't stopped. Sometimes fantasizing about them late at night while I...touch myself is the only way I can get a few hours of sleep.

Would I take that step? Yes, BUT, does my anxiety cripple my confidence? Double yes. And could I choose? No.But Henry and Kai did.

Blinking away the upsetting inner monologue before I ruin my already unhinged mood, I focus back on Henry's probing gaze. "Neen, come on. You know we all had a crush on you."Do I know that?"Time hasn't changed our feelings."

OUR?!

"I'm sorry for pushing about the appointment," Henry continues like he didn't just drop a confusing bomb on me. "I'm worried about what they said about your weight and hormones. The fact that they didn't replace the IUD is also worrisome. I hope they talked through the side effects and you asked questions."

I nod, just like I did through most of my appointment. It's easier to agree than to explain that I didn't even know what to ask.I want my mom. I make a mental note to call her as Henry starts the car with a lingering glance at me.

"I'm here if you want to talk about anything or if you just need a snuggle, okay?"

"Okay," I whisper, and scold my aching uterus for perking up at the thought of being close to him.

As we're exiting the parking lot, Henry grins at me. "Let's meet the guys for lunch. What do you say?"

No.I don't say that, though. Instead, I twist my hands in my lap and nibble on my lip. I can give him some of the truth andmaybe he can decide. "I don't feel very good, Hen," I murmur. "Taking it out, it, um, it hurt."

Concern furrows his brow, and he steals my left hand back. "I didn't think of that. Thank you for telling me, Nina. I'm proud of you for opening up."

What?

"I'll tell Trev to get some ice cream. Be ready for alpha male spoon feeding while we snuggle."

Two of them are getting married and the other two don't want you,my insecurities roar.

My anxiety takes a back seat when Henry kisses my hand and places it on his thigh. My body flushes with some form of neediness I don't think I've ever actually experienced.

I don't recognize myself without the trembles and self-deprecating thoughts.But I think I might like this new form of intimacy. Can I handle more?

Chapter 30

Trevor

Fucking hell. You know, I've been horny before, obviously, but I can barely control myself right now.

Kai chuckles but shuts up when I shoot him a vicious glare. He has a fucking fiancé to take care of his raging hard on when we go back to the hotel, but I don't. Neither does Ridge and he's barely concealing his hard on.

"Mmm," Nina moans around the spoon I plop between her lips. Her eyes are closed and her chest rises with her pleased inhale after swallowing down the cream. The tip of her pink tongue pokes out, and she sighs, wiggling back against Henry even more.

A clank draws my attention to my cousin again. "We're done with ice cream! Now. Everyone. Hand it over."

Kai laughs again, but I'm conflicted. I’d like to keep feeding Nina her treat, but a very large part of me wants to feed her something else.

"Yep." I clear my throat and hand Ridge Nina's spoon. "All done over here." I cough again and adjust myself as discreetly as possible.

Ridge grunts, takes away all the ice cream, and all but rushes from the living room.

"Uh, rude," Henry grumbles from his spot behind Nina. I wasn't jealous of him before for getting snuggles since I wanted to feed our girl, but I just gave that up because my libido couldn't hang.

"I agree..." Nina pouts, but I swear there's a little mischief in her eye.

I shift, pull one knee up on the cushion, and drape my arm around the back of the couch until I'm facing her. "Baby girl," I growl. "Were you teasing us with those little noises?"

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