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“I already am,” I giggled.

“I want those things with you because you want them with me. Think about it for a couple of days. They’re sending us out again, but I’ll call you when I get back. If you don’t hear from me for a few days, don’t be worried. When someone dies or gets severely injured here, they blackout all communication until they can contact the family. It’s frustrating, but we understand. I know you wanted to know what a blackout means and now you know.”

“In a way that helps unless it’s you.” I laughed sadly. “Every time you tell me you’re out there where the bad guys are, I’m always worried. Just because you tell me not to isn’t going to change that.”

“Fair enough. Although I do wish you wouldn’t worry about me…” He looked off to the side and tensed. “Shit, I gotta go. I’ll talk to you soon. I love you.”

And then he disconnected without letting me say anything back. He’d said I love you so easily, and I didn’t even know if I could have said anything in response. It didn’t matter because he hadn’t given me the chance.

All I knew was that I had a lot of soul searching to do.

Could I give Holden my heart again?

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To:[email protected]

From:[email protected]

Subject: I Want You

Date: June 11, 2018 6:11 am

Holden,

I want you. I want you so damn much it hurts that you’re not here with me. I hate that I can’t tell you in person, but I couldn’t wait. So, you better not break my heart again. I couldn’t sleep last night. My mind replayed everything you said on a loop. I realized that I’d always regret not giving you a chance. You’ve always been my one true love, and how can I throw that away? I can’t. Plain and simple.

I wanted you to know as soon as you got back. I can’t wait to see your handsome face again.

Today I’m going to pick out a puppy. I’m not sure if they’ll let me bring one home today or not. I hope so, that way my mind will be on something other than you out on a mission and worried about you.

I hope to hear from you soon.

All My Love,

Prue

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To:[email protected]

From:[email protected]

Subject: I’m a Mother

Date: June 13, 2018 9:39 am

Holden,

If you couldn’t guess from the subject, they let me bring home a puppy! He is the cutest and sweetest thing ever. He’s a mini Australian Shepherd and Pomeranian mix. I love him already, but how could you not with his big puppy dog eyes and sweet puppy breath? His name is Atticus, and I know you’re going to fall in love with him when you finally get to meet him.

Waiting to hear from you.

All My Love,

Prue

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