Page 57 of The Bosun

“Stop thinking about it for now and enjoy our little impromptu vacation. You deserve one after that hectic book tour.”

I had been busy. It showed me what Pen did when she was on tour with a band; only hers was ramped up times a thousand.

“I kind of feel bad that I’m keeping you away from your family, especially now that I know you haven’t been apart. They could have come.”

“They could have, but that’s too much flying back-to-back with Delilah. If we could have stayed longer, I would have brought them with us. They’ll be fine, and I’ll be fine. Dillie loves her dad, and I’m sure she’ll love all of his attention solely on her for a change.”

“When you look at him with your daughter, do your ovaries ache for him to impregnate you?”

“Something like that.” She leaned closer as if she was going to tell me a secret. “We’ve been talking about having another baby, and I stopped taking my birth control.” She shrugged. “So, we’ll see. It’ll happen when it happens.”

I had a feeling it would happen very soon.

“I’m not sure I’m equipped to handle seeing your husband holding a baby. If you’re planning to get pregnant, then I need to get a boyfriend stat.”

One eyebrow rose in question. “One that you want to have a baby with?”

“Maybe,” I shrugged one shoulder. “I don’t even know if I can get pregnant. I tried for years with Brock, and no matter what we tried, I never got pregnant. Maybe it was a sign I’m not meant to be a mother.”

“Or maybe it was a sign that you weren’t supposed to get tied down to an asshole who’d cheat on you.”

I couldn’t imagine how complicated everything would have been if I’d been pregnant or if we’d had a child. I wasn’t going to plague myself with what ifs though. I knew one thing. “I’d like to be a mother one day. If I can’t have a child of my own, I’d happily adopt. There are so many kids out there that need a home.”

“Maybe you should look into it when we get back. See what it would take for you to adopt. You don’t have to wait for a man to be in your life.”

Logically I knew that. I wanted a man and a child, but just because I wanted them didn’t mean I had to do them in order.

“Why are you so damn smart?”

“I just am.” She giggled. “But seriously, if you want a family, you don’t have to wait for a man.”

“I’m going to give myself until the end of the year because I can’t imagine writing a book while going through the process. I want to be able to devote all of my headspace to it.”

“Now that we slept almost the entire flight and won’t need a nap, what should we do until tonight?”

“Why don’t we walk around and check out the architecture, maybe do a little shopping, and then head to the Red Light District?”

“I knew there was a reason we were friends,” Lexie laughed.

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Several hours later,Lexie and I were crammed into the front section of the venue, jumping around as Crimson Heat belted out their encore. They were good. Better than good, and I knew after this tour, they were going to blow up the world with their music.

As the song started to slow, Lexie grabbed my hand. “We should try to make our way backstage now before things get too crazy,” she yelled over the music.

I nodded in agreement and let her lead the way since I had no idea where I was going. Neither did she, but she certainly acted like it. We were stopped by a big burly man who was half as wide as the hall. Lexie flashed her badge and smile and then picked up mine to show. The guy didn’t speak. He only nodded and moved enough to let us slip by.

Lexie and I moved quickly down the hall. Our excitement built off the others as we spotted Pen standing off to the side with big headphones on. She hadn’t seen us yet. We moved to the other side of the hall and slinked down it slowly, hoping she wouldn’t turn around and catch us until we were directly behind her. Lexie clapped a hand over her mouth as her body shook, trying to hold in her laughter.

Sneaking up behind Pen, I placed my hand on her shoulder. She turned around with a pinched face until she took us in standing before her. Mouth hanging open, Pen pulled me into her arms and hugged me until I couldn’t breathe. Next, she gave Lexie a hug before taking a step back and looking us over as if she couldn’t believe we were standing before her.

Jumping up and down in place, Pen yelled. “What are you guys doing here?”

“We thought we’d come and surprise you since it’s been forever since we saw you.”

“And to meet your man,” Lexie supplied.

“Shh,” Pen hushed her. “Don’t let anyone hear you say that. We’re keeping it on the down-low. The only ones who know are you two and Walker’s bandmates because they found us in a compromising situation.”

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