Damn, it feels good to tell him how I feel. It’s not until then I realize I’ve been holding back probably for the exact same reason, so really, I have nothing to be mad about. What we need to do is communicate better.
His eyes soften as he pulls me closer to him. “Well, I love you, so I hopeeverythingto you means you love me too.”
“It does,” I kiss along his jaw until I reach the corner of his mouth where I nip his bottom lip. “I should have told you before today how I feel.”
“I should have done the same, but I didn’t want to ruin what we have by opening my big mouth. Are you sure you want to live with me? I will have to get up even earlier to tend to the horses if we live at your place. We could live at my place,” he suggests.
Yeah, no, thank you. While Garrison isn’t as bad as he was, I like my privacy. At first, keeping quiet when he was around was fun, but now it’s a drag. I like hearing Mad yell out my name, and I know he feels the same.
“Maybe we can move the horses out to my place,” I offer. “I’ve got a barn I don’t use, and we can make a nice place for them.”
“Wow,” he smiles, and it brightens up the room. “When you go all in, you really go all in. Your place is nicer, and I could give mine to my brother.” His body sags against mine.
“If you don’t want to leave your brother, I understand.” He’s been taking care of him since he got out of high school.
“Oh, I’m so ready to not live with my brother. The thing is, it’s going to be a lot of work to get your place ready for the horses, you know?”
“I’m not afraid of a little hard work.” I roll on top of him and settle between his legs. “You know, the day after I got stuck and Garrison helped me out of the ditch?”
“Yeah?” He looks up at me. The corners of his mouth turned down.
“Not that I needed his encouragement, but he told me I should come around more. Garrison may not show up in the way you want, but he does care about you. I’m not saying you shouldn’t give him the house. That’s up to you, but don’t move in with me only because you want to get away from him.”
His eyes light up with amusement. “That’s not what I expected you to bring up when I felt your dick growing against my leg. But let’s get this straight right here and now. There’s no way in hell I’d move my life to your place just to get away from my brother.” He grabs my face between his rough hands and shakes my head back and forth. “For fuck’s sake, I just told you I love you.”
“I know. I guess it just hasn’t sunk in yet. This is all new to me” I dip my head down and rest it against his forehead. “Now, I think we have about an hour before we need to meet Dash and Sloane for breakfast, so why don’t you let me show you how much I love you?”
His nostrils flare as he smirks up at me. “I like the sound of that.”
Reaching over, he grabs a condom and the lube. I start to take it from him, but Mad pushes my hands away. I watch as he rolls the condom over my straining cock, and then slathers it with the lube.
I circle my tongue over the flat disc of his nipple as I run my hand up the smooth skin of his side. Cupping the side of his neck, I can barely get the words out as I speak. “Are you sure about this?”
This is the first time Mad has let me inside him, and his trust means a lot to me. Sure, he’s let me finger him, but nothing like this.
“Yeah, I’m sure. I want you to know I trust you with both my heart and my body.”
I don’t hold back showing Mad how much he and his words mean to me. I crash my mouth to his, dipping my tongue inside, and taste every bit that is him. Mad doesn’t disappoint. His hands go to my shoulders, pulling me closer as if he can’t get enough of me. Our tongues swirl and caress in a dance of desire. I know I’ll never get tired of him. The way he makes my body sing is something I’ll never be able to let go of, and I only hope I can do the same for him. This past year hasn’t begun to satiate my need for him. We’re only getting started.
Pressing my tip to his tight hole, I slowly push inside, letting him get accustomed to my size. It’s not until I’m fully surrounded by his heat that I release a breath I didn’t know I was holding.
Slowly, I start to move. This feels so damn good, and I need to focus on Maddox’s pleasure the way he’s always focused on mine. I want to make this good for him.
Mad bows up and husks in my ear. “You’re my first.”
“What?” I stop all movement, unsure if I heard him correctly.
“You’re the first person I’ve let penetrate me with anything other than their fingers. You’re the first person I’ve loved other than my family.”
His words have me moving quicker than before, but not too fast. I want to relish in the moment and store it in my memory.
“Fucking hell, Mad. If I had known, I would have prepped you better.”
“It’s okay. I’m fine.” He nods, his blond hair falling over his forehead.
Brushing his hair out of his face, I pull all the way out and slowly push in until I bottom out. “I can’t tell you how much this means to me. You won’t regret it.”
“I know I won’t.” A sexy smirk teases his lips. “Now fuck me like you mean it because this may be the last time I let you do this.”