My lips buzzed against his skin while liquid fire dripped down my body, but it was over too quick to understand the feeling.
Without looking at him again, I said a quickgoodnightback and hurried inside my apartment. I locked the door behind me and leaned against it. My pulse went through the goddamn roof and my heart threatened to jump out of my chest.
I could look a man dead in the eyes when I took his life, but kissing Zach on the cheek was making me gasp for air.
Pathetic.
And yet, I couldn’t bring myself to be mad about it.
Maybe Natalia was right. Maybe it was time for me to start dating. Iwastwenty-one years old after all. I was mature. I could be reasonable and lose my virginity when I felt ready. I had gone to therapy and worked through my trauma, but now I had to put it into action.
Still, there was that feeling… That there was something I didn’t know. Something telling me not to get close to Zach. Natalia and my therapist would say that was just my trauma response.
Still, I was like a moth to a flame. It was inevitable.
Just earlier in the night, I had sworn I’d never sleep with Zach, and now here I was: voluntarilytouchinghim. I’d never had a crush before, but I was starting to think he could become my first.
For a moment, I wondered how he had known my floor and door number.
Fuck it. The man knew everything.
I was still half asleep when I felt the sheets being pulled off me. I was on my stomach, face in pillows, and naked since I slept hot during summer. A warm, heavy weight settled on my back, pushing me into the mattress. The alarm bells in my head went off before a known masculine fragrance wrapped around me.
As I looked over my shoulder, a nose grazed my cheek, setting my senses on fire. My heart hammered against my chest and blood roared in my ears.
My voice came out breathless. “Zach?”
A million questions swarmed through my head, from how he got in, to what I should do. I didn’t know what was happening, and an unfamiliar feeling rolled through me at the realization that I didn’t actually care. I couldn’t think, all I could do was feel.
Rough hands traveled up the side of my thighs, gripping my hips, and when his fingers dug into me, my heartbeat dropped between my legs. I moaned, digging my acrylics into my pillow as he kissed my neck, hot and wet.
Zach forced his hands between the mattress and my body, one palm settling over my stomach, the other sliding up. His dark voice pierced me through the chest. “Missedyou,hermosa.” My nipples were already diamond peaks when he palmed my breasts.
I groaned in the pillow as he continued kissing my shoulder and spine, down all the way to my lower back. He roughly grabbed my thighs and flipped me on my back, letting out a masculine sound of approval when he dipped his head between my legs. My head fell back and my back arched. His fingers dug into me and my hands went to his hair, gripping and pulling. His touch felt so good and warm – soright.
Pulling away, he climbed over me. Every time his muscles tensed and flexed, I felt myself getting wetter. He leaned down and our lips met. I moaned into him. I knew he would be the best thing I’d ever taste.
“You’re so fucking beautiful,” He groaned against my lips. “I can’t wait to see what you look like full of my cock.”
I could feel his bulge pressing between my legs and I thought I was going to lose my mind.
“I want you inside me,” I moaned. When he didn’t respond, I pulled him closer, our lips grazing. “Just the tip…”
“Maria…” He rasped.
“Zach,please.”
He kissed me again, with more force, and my eyes rolled to the back of my head in pleasure. My breathing turned more erratic when I felt the head of his cock slide against my opening. And then he pushed inside me–
I woke up gasping.
My heart was threatening to jump out of my chest and I was aching between the legs. Pushing up on my elbows, I looked around my room – frustrated to find out I’d been dreaming aboutthatandhim.
I wouldneverdo or say that.
The jerk was in my fucking dreams too. I just couldn’t escape him.
I tried to calm down and remember the events of the night before.Francesca’s birthday… The random guy who got murdered… Zach pinning me to the wall… His strong hands carrying me to his car… Me kissing his cheek…