Page 13 of Feeling Blue

The way Forever’s smile dropped from her face was almost comical because she looked scared, but he didn’t laugh. Something that real didn’t need any laughter coming behind it to water it down. That was one thought she needed to remain potent. Raw, Haitian dick with no chaser. Forever’s life would never be the same again, and she didn’t even know it. Luckily for her, he did.

Her world was safe for him

Forever’s hands shook terribly as she approached the sidewalk of her home. It was the same as she’d left it, only this time she wouldn’t be occupying it alone. The mint green shudders were the same, the yellow door was the same, and the multi-colored stones along the front were all the same. It would be lovely if she could say the same about herself.

For years, she’d been the only one in her small California home, only allowing her sneaky link the freedom to come and go, then there was that tricky behind Marcellus that found his way inside of her walls undeservingly, and now Blue. Her Blue-Blue. Sexy and intimidatingly confident Zurich Blue. Forever’s heart rate quickened as he invaded her mind once again.

All day, he’d been there and refused to leave. Forever had been trying everything she could to push him away enough to settle herself, but that was slowly becoming a lost cause. She’d known allowing him into her most scared vessel would trigger the feelings she’d been doing her best to suppress since leaving Marcellus and meeting him, but now they were back and as loud as a second line festival in New Orleans.

Hopelessness, despair, and fear. Fear was the biggest culprit, and even in her sexiest, most dependable, and curve accentuating big girl panties, she was still cowering to it. Marcellus had her so afraid of love that she didn’t know whatto do or how to do it, but she knew one thing for sure: she had to find a way. The eerily quiet man behind her wasn’t going for anything less.

“So, this your spot?” His voice carried from behind her as they stopped on the top stair near her front door.

Her head nodded as she cleared her throat. “Yeah.”

“Looks like you. Cute, classy, and lowkey expensive as fuck.”

Forever giggled as she rambled through her purse, trying to find her keys. When she finally did, Blue took them from her and let them into the house. The moment the door pushed open, and the smell of her home hit her nostrils, Forever relaxed. The soft scent of lilac and vanilla overtook them the moment they crossed the threshold.

“Damn,” Blue cursed, while closing the door behind them. “I knew it was gon’ be laid up in here.” He stopped near the sofa and placed their bags down.

Forever watched as his eyes surveyed the entire room. He looked from the living room to the kitchen doorway, then over to the dining room before stopping on the large pile of packages that were tossed carelessly in the corner. He pointed, but allowed her the freedom of explaining what they were.

“Pat had it all sent here.”

“Them my clothes?”

Forever nodded bashfully.

Blue marveled at her with a special gleam in his eyes. She’d really listened to him and obliged all the requests he’d made before being released. The fact that she didn’t mind being told what to do and actually made it her business to do it was a good sign and something that he could most definitely appreciate.

“Aye, let me get a hug or something.” Blue held his hand out toward her until she took it and walked into his embrace.

The hug felt lovely. Like something he’d been missing for years. So good that Forever didn’t rush pulling away.

“You know I’m out my mind right now,” he told her.

“Me too, Zurich. I can’t believe we’re here right now, doing this.”

“I knew we would be.” He pecked the top of her head. “Go run us a bath.”

Forever walked away and down the hallway, disappearing from his sight. Once he was alone, Blue took a seat on the sofa to really take in the reality of the moment. The soft cushions of her crème sofa welcomed him as he lay his head back and stretched his long legs out beneath her glass coffee table. With closed lids, Blue took a couple of deep breaths and allowed the racing thoughts to float away.

Being on the inside, away from all his family, friends, and gang, had given him the time he needed to really focus on his life and what he wanted out of it. One of the main things being a real family. A wife, kids, maybe even a legal job, even though he didn’t need it, and Forever presented that.

Though they’d never had the conversation about starting a family, something in him told him she would be game for a happily ever after with him. At least, that’s what he hoped. There was no telling how she would feel after visiting Dade, though. Forever was a tad bit bourgeois, and a day with his boys might send her running for her life.

“Babe? You ready?”

Blue’s chest sank at the velvety softness of her voice. Then adding a pet name to it made his heart smile. Simply enjoying the moment was what kept his eyes closed for a few secondslonger before opening them to land on her. His black beauty in all of her shining, perfect glory.

No longer covered in her outfit from earlier, but decked out in that white lace again. Blue’s bottom lip slid between his teeth slowly as he took in her model type frame. Extra-long limbs, with legs for days, flat toned stomach, dark chocolate skin, soft round breasts, and that gorgeous fucking face that made his lips quiver.

“Babe?” he inquired while standing to his feet.

“Yeah, babe. My babe.” With her hand stretched out toward him, Forever waited in that timid way she had about herself. “You are mine, right?”

Blue’s eyes took her in as he trekked toward her. “Hell yeah, I’m yours. Don’t wanna be nobody else’s.”

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