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Dissociating this deep has never happened to me before, but I would so much rather be numb and devastated than feel what is happening.

When they finally stop touching me, they all zip up and walk off the track together toward the campsite. They leave me there a bloody mess.

I lay there watching the sun start to rise from behind the mountain. I just lost my virginity, in every way.

Every part of me.

Taken by four strangers.

In the place that has always been my happy place.

I will never be happy again.

I start to sob until everything goes black.

Chapter 11

Olive

Something wet splashes my face as I open my eyes to terrified faces in front of me.

“Oli! Oh, my gods. I’m so happy to see those beautiful eyes of yours.” Zander says, looking as if he aged ten years in the few minutes I was out.

“What’s happening, are they still out there?” I ask, semi panicked that they will say yes.

“No baby, when I showed up they were already gone,” Jayce tucks his gun back into its holster and I lean into his arms.

“Oh my gods, thank you so much for coming, I was so scared. What the fuck is happening?”

“I have no idea, but I’m going to request extra patrols around here and let them know what is going on. We need to report it now so that we have a paper trail, try to do it legally,” he says gripping his fists together angrily.

“Because when I find him, what I plan to do to him won’t be legal.” He puts his chin on the top of my head and holds me tighter.

This is where I feel safe.

“You heard him Janice, the cop just told us he is going to break the law for our little lady,” Zander says jokingly.

“Don’t act like you won’t be right next to me giving this dude some new holes in his body.” Jayce looks annoyed.

“Oh yeah, I will be there, but I’m a criminal. It’s expected of me. I’ll burn the fucking world for our little Oli,” Zander says, staring right into my eyes.

“Zander, why do you keep calling my girlfriend ‘our Oli’? She is my Oli… MINE. I may share when she and I discuss it, but ‘little Oli,’’ he says mockingly, “is mine, do you understand?”

Chapter 12

Zander

Holy shit where is this coming from, I thought the last few days went really well. I mean, I’m almost embarrassed to say I had hoped for the option to see if a throuple thing would be possible with how much we all connected. I will never admit that though, not now.

“Jeez Jayce, why don’t you just pee on me too,” Oli says looking at me with an ‘I’m sorry’ look.

“No problem, Jayce. I’m happy to respect Oli’s boundaries on that.” Looking at him pointedly, knowing he heard me, and intentionally left his comfort and wants out of the equation. I walk off scoffing.

The sound of the shower and the steam rolling out from under the bathroom door let me know I fell asleep on the couch. The last thing I remembered was sending the girls to bed, and Jayce and I standing guard in the living room in awkward silence.

“Nice of you to join us again,” Jayce grunts at me.

Rubbing my sleepy eyes, I sit up. “Where are the girls?”

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