Page 119 of On Ice

“I’m gonna comeinsideyou,” I say harshly. My eyes blur and my body feels hot and flushed. My dick swells and my balls tighten, and I roll my hips going as deep as possible. “No condom. You’re going to feel my hot seed.”

“Oh, god.”He cries out hoarsely, and a stream of cum paints the glass. His body jerks and shudders, and his knee smears cum across the glass. He reaches back, digging his nails into my thigh. “Oh, fuck, Luca.”

Then I’m gone, losing all control. My dick jerks and releases a warm load deep inside his quaking hole. I press my face against his back, emotions flooding me. The pleasure and the feelings swamp me. My eyes blur with tears as I fill my lover full. I could cry it feels so fucking good to be with Evan. I can’t lose him. I just can’t.

I fuck him until we’re both weak and spent, then I pull out and turn him. Our mouths immediately meet, and at first there’s lust and hunger, but slowly the kisses turn tender. Loving.Loving. Does he want my love? Will he reject me if I tell him how I feel? It doesn’t seem to matter. I can’t hold my feelings in any longer. I’m driven to tell him what he means to me.

I bury my face in his throat and I whisper, “I love you, Evan.”

He goes very still and for one horrible second, I think I’ve fucked everything up. But the he pulls back and his eyes meet mine. He looks on the verge of tears, but I see something else too: relief.

Then he smiles. “You really love me, Luca?”

I can’t speak, but I force myself to nod.

“Thank God, because I love you too,” he says softly, cupping my face. He leans in and kisses me. The kiss is tender and searching, and like no kiss he’s ever given me. There’s a softness and a reverence I’ve never experienced from a kiss.

We hug each other and the joy I feel is insane. I feel lighter. Happier. I just told Evan I love him, and he feels the same way. That means he’s mine. I don’t have to worry about him leaving me. So long as I treat him well, I know he’ll stay. And I want nothing more than to treat him well. I want to spoil him rotten.

“I was so scared,” I say gruffly. “I… I’ve never told a lover that. Never.”

“Me neither.”

I can’t help smiling at his admission. “Good.” I take his hand. “So then, we’re together now. Right? Officially?”

He smiles. “I would hope so.”

I lead him to the bed and I clean his stomach and the knee that smeared cum on the window. Then I lift the covers for him to get in first. I drop my pants and join him, and we move together. His warm body against mine makes my heart ache. I hold him in my arms and he rests his head on my chest. This is all so new for me, but I like it. I like it because it’s Evan who’s by my side.

He strokes his hand over my chest. “That’s what I was thinking about tonight.”

I frown. “What do you mean?”

“When you asked me what was wrong earlier. I was struggling with whether to tell you how I felt or not. I wasn’t sure how you felt about me.”

I wrinkle my brow. “But I said I wanted this to work out.”

He sighs. “Yeah, but people say that about pet adoptions too.”

I smile. “I guess that’s true. Well, I don’t want you as my pet. Although, you probably would look hot in a studded collar.”

“Not happening, Luca.”

I chuckle and place my hand on the small of his back. “I’m glad I don’t have to hide my feelings anymore. It was getting harder and harder.”

“Same.”

I interlace our fingers, noticing how rough and calloused his are and how smooth and manicured mine are. “We’re very different people.”

He snorts a laugh. “I noticed.”

“But even so, we blend well.”

“We do.” He looks up at me. “Now that you’re not threatening me.”

I shrug. “Well, you were very difficult to control in the beginning. I didn’t know how to handle you. Usually threats work great, but you were so damn obstinate.”

“Excuse me for not wanting to betray my brothers on the ice.”

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