Page 26 of We Could Be Better

I know she hadn’t talked to Dreka about my situation because she was acting brand new, but it was so much I wanted to just sit down and say. I wanted to know everything she was asking too that’s why we were here. I had plans to ask him and his girl all of the questions Kyra was asking me.

“Stay here I’m going knock on the door.”

I got out and walked to the door in search for Chaz, but once I reached the door a woman came. I had to admit she was very beautiful she resembled Amber Rose but she had hair. No wonder Chaz was here; I didn’t look half as beautiful as her. Itcrazy how a man can bring down your self esteem; I thought I knew my worth until I was standing here looking in the face of the woman that took my man and had kids with him.

“Hi, I know you don’t know me but my name is Mina.”

“I know exactly who you are and Chaz is not here.”

See I had already put in my mind that I wasn’t going to come here and start drama because it wasn’t the woman fault. But when she said she knew me It sent me over the edge, so that meant while you were laying up with my man you knew I was home waiting. Now I really felt stupid coming here and the bitch knew everything about me. I was far from scary but I wasn’t stupid; I had one damn arm and Kyra was pregnant. I wasn’t going to put her in a fucked up situation so I just left. This will not be the last time they hear from me.

Chaz had been blowing up my phone which only meant his bitch had told him that I been by. But every call went unanswered and every text was ignored. If Chaz wanted to holla at me he was just going to have to be a man and come say what’s on his mind. I knew he would be coming any moment now from the text he had sent. He walked in the door on que and took a seat in front me.

“Mina, why the fuck did you show up and my house today?”

“I just wanted to see that woman that you left me for. She’s very pretty.” Hating on another woman wasn’t going to change the situation, so I just gave her props.

“Look Mina you have to move on we are getting married soon and I don’t want you just popping up at me house.”

“I understand I wish you nothing but the best. Lock the door behind you.”

He got up and did as I said; I know everyone like I know she just not gon let him walk out that door. Well, yes I am I told yall I only had one arm so it’s not much I can do right now, but it wasn’t over. I had put too much into my relationship with Chaz, it was nights he was damn near kill me and leave me on the floor hanging on to my life. I had gave this man my all I wasn’t about to let him just leave out that door and life happily ever after. That’s only on Disney movies because in reality this nigga was about to die at the hands of me. His girl was about to be a single mother in the words of Plies “aint no wedding bihh”

Chapter Twenty-Three

Kyra

After running everything by Dreka what went down with Mina earlier she told me about what happened with them. I couldn’t believe someone I had known my whole life was going through so much at home. She didn’t tell me what was said once she got back in the car she just ask me to take her home and I had done just that. I felt bad for Mina because I thought she was the happy one out the group. She was always there and not once had I see her hurting. I guess I was so caught up in my own little drama I wouldn’t know.

Lately I had days when I was up and down my court date passed and I didn’t go. I was no longer about to let Cash see me hurt if he wanted our daughter then he can take her, but one thing he was going to need me for something. He couldn’t run the streets like he wanted to with a fucking child and he know he loved the streets more then he loved anything else.

Dreka had been my backbone through all of this and for that I will forever be grateful. She hasn’t left my side once and has even given me updates on Paisley. My baby was in the second grade and adapting well to a new school. Dreka would let me talk to her on the phone whenever she was at their house and it would hurt my soul to hear her ask me when I was coming get her. I don’t know what to say whenever she ask; I want to so badly tell her that her stupid ass dad is holding her back from me. But I don’t want to be the mom that bashes their kids father. It wasn’t much I can say anyways Cash was just hurt but I didn’t know how long he would hold a grudge against me.

I had packed all of my things up and moved into a nice little condo that only Dreka, Mina, and Onika knew about. After everything that went down I didn’t want any more drama; I was officially done and I didn’t want to keep stressing my body out. I was determined to have a healthy baby boy, but if I would’ve continued the way I started off that would have been impossible.

I was lying back in my bed and mind fell on Keith; I found out a lot about him lately. But it was like after we found out he just disappeared again. I couldn’t believe that he had gone so far as to black mailing me with pictures of Paisley as if he knew me reveling the truth to Cash would break us up. He didn’t fight for our marriage but he didn’t want to see me happy; he getting a joy out of seeing me hurt. Maybe that’s why he was trying to kill Dreka, because he knew I would really lose it.

We still didn’t know who was behind everything with Bella, but we learned it was Kaine brother Deuce who we have yet to put a face with. I wasn’t going to stop until I found out not that I cared if anyone was gunning for Cash, but once that said something about killing Pai too that’s when I got involved in everything. She was innocent and had nothing to do with what was going on; she barely even knew us so I wasn’t about to let anyone take her away from us.

I jumped up at the sound of someone banging on my door. I know no one knew where I stayed except for my girls and it was after two in the morning, so I knew they had to be in bed with their men. I slowly made my way to the door looking out of the peep hole and rolled me eyes at Cash standing on the other side holding Paisley in his arms. I quickly opened the door and grabbed her; she was in a deep sleep because she didn’t budge. But it didn’t stop me from kissing all over her little cheeks.

“What are you doing out so late?”

“Look Kyra I know you might hate me and never want to talk to me but I just got to get this off my chest. I love you with everything in me I was mad about the way you went about things when it came to Paisley. But you did what you had to do, I hate the way I act when I found out you were pregnant but I know that’s my baby and even though I told you different not once did I think otherwise. I no longer want to keep Paisley from you and I want to be a part of the new baby life.”

Cash coming and apologizing is all I ever wanted I will never deny him access to be in his child life. I looked him deep in his eyes and for the first time I can tell he had been crying. Which was crazy because Cash wasn’t the crying type, so I knew this was now taking a toll on him. I wish things would have worked out for us but I know now we can’t be together.

“I will never deny you access to be in your kids life; I know I hurt you and for that I am sorry. But I will keep you updated with everything the remainder of my pregnancy.”

“That’s all I want I promise to become a better man for you and the kids.”

“Actions speak volume! You can stay in my guest room tonight, it’s late and I don’t want you traveling on that road.”

I walked off to go place Paisley in my bed when I moved out my house. I moved into a little two bedroom condo. Nothing too big but comfortable enough; I laid in my bed and cuddled up with my daughter. For the last couple months this moment is the moment I had dreamed of this was all I wanted. The only thing missing was Cash lying next to us. I was mad at him but who am I kidding I needed to feel his touch. I went through half of this pregnancy alone.

I quietly got out the bed with Pai and went down the hallway to my guestroom where Cash was lying. When I walked in he was lying on his back with his hands behind his head looking up at the ceiling; I didn’t say anything to him. I just got in the bed and snuggled up under him. At that moment I didn’t want to speak I just wanted to feel loved by him again.

“Kyra, I know I fucked up with you and there’s not enough apologies that can take back the hurt. But I love you with everything in me and it has always been that way since we were kids. There is not another woman out there that has made me feel the way you do. I am very sorry for all that I have done to you; I was stupid and selfish. Please find it in your heart to believe me, we don’t have to ever be together but I want you to forgive me.”

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