Page 19 of Bitter Falls

“Any pictures of her, or maybe some contact information for Karen Forbes you can give me?”

“I’ll go look.” She rushes off toward what I assume will be the bedroom.She’s sleeping in his bed. Wearing his clothes.Man. This isn’t good, and I wonder if her husband understands the depth of his wife’s obsession. But I’m not here to play counselor. I’m here to find her son, and if I understand anything at all about Ruth Landry, it’s that her cure will be the answer to what happened to her son, living or dead. This limbo is a living hell.

She comes back with a framed photo—Remy, with his easy grin, and his arm around a young woman. She’s blonde, tall, curvy, and has a magazine-cover smile. Pretty and lively. The picture tells me nothing about her other than that, but I take it, position it on the coffee table, and take a photo for the records. Then I turn the frame over and pull the picture out, hoping for a note on the back, but it’s just smooth photo paper. I put it back and hand it to Ruth. She repositions it on the coffee table and stares at her son.

“He was pretty serious about her,” she says. “More than he ought to have been at his age. I wanted him back home. His father wanted Remy to inherit the business and run it. But he just wasn’t interested in all that. I think he was going to ask Karen to marry him. But I don’t know that she would have said yes, or if she did, if they’d have made it for long.”

“What kind of business does your husband have?” I ask her. It’s probably in the records, but it’s something to keep her moving. She can’t seem to look away from her son’s face.

“Cars,” she says. “We’re the biggest distributor in our parish. And boats too. Do a good trade in those as well. A few RVs, mostly used, though.”

I nod. I can’t imagine she’s been out of this apartment for quite a while, so when she’s sayingwe, I understand that meansmy husband. Her job now is tending this graveyard. “Okay. Thank you, that’s very helpful. Now, let’s talk more about Remy, if that’s okay...Your last conversation was about this Carol, is that right?”

“Fight,” she corrects. “Well, more or less. I didn’t like him being around someone who was in trouble, like Carol was.”

“What kind of trouble?”

She shakes her head. “I don’t really know. He didn’t give me any details about that, and he got sharp with me when I tried to find out. Then we fought about how he wanted to spend Thanksgiving with Karen and her family, can you even imagine? InConnecticut. I put my foot down and said, ‘No, Remy, you come on home. You let that girl go be with her family and you come be with yours.’ He didn’t like that, and he told me he’d think about it.” Her eyes are welling up with shimmering tears, and her face is reddening under the pressure of her grief. Her voice takes on an unsteady shiver. “Thanksgiving was just a week away when we had that conversation, you know. I was already planning the meal. He told me to keep on like I was doing while he thought about it, so I did. Even after I couldn’t get hold of him to be sure he was coming, I cooked dinner. I thought he’d just show up. Or at leastcall. But we sat there at the table and just...”

She breaks. I can see it in my mind—the family gathered at the table, the empty place, the food cooling in the bowls while they stare and wait and wait until it’s obvious there will be no Thanksgiving miracle, no Remy knocking on the door, flashing them that easy, wonderful grin and telling them he was sorry to worry them.

I push a box of Kleenex on the table toward her, and she takes a handful and presses them to her face as she sobs. It takes a while, and as I wait I begin to smell something baking. I wonder if it’s coming from the other apartments around us, but then a kitchen timer dings, and Ruth gasps and jumps up, loose tissues fluttering toward the coffee table as she drops them.

She heads into the kitchen. I follow and stand at the doorway as she pulls on oven mitts and takes a tray of cookies from the oven. She places it on the stove and shoots me a trembling smile. “Remy’s favorites,” she says. “Peanut butter chocolate chip.” She moves the tray to the kitchen counter under the window, slides it open, and I feel the breeze drift in. “Want one?”

“Sure,” I tell her.

She expertly slides one from the baking tray onto a little plate and hands it to me. “Coffee with that?”

I nod, and she pours me a cup from an already-brewed pot. We sit down at the small colonial kitchen table with our coffee and cookies, and Ruth says, “I make these every week now. Every day, when I first moved here. I keep thinking...I keep thinking that if he smells those fresh cookies, he might just come home. I open the window so he can smell them from out there. Wherever he is. I know I should stop, but I can’t. Stupid, isn’t it?”

I take a bite of the cookie. “It’s delicious,” I tell her. “And no. It’s not stupid at all. Desperate, maybe, and painful, but that’s normal, Ruth. You need a little hope.”

“I do, yes.” She takes a deep breath and drinks some coffee, visibly steeling herself. “Do you think he’s dead, Ms. Proctor?”

“I don’t know,” I tell her, which is the truth, but not all of it by any stretch. “I’m starting from scratch right now. I’m going to go over everything. The police are good at this, but they also have lots of priorities, lots of cases on their desks. It isn’t that they don’t try, but that when clues dry up, they have to move on to the next critical window for another family. The reason we’re able to do more is that we just have more time to devote to you. And I promise you, I’ll take this as far as I can.”

She’s looking at me oddly now. Frowning a little, with an intentness to her stare that means she’s actually taking me in as a person instead of a placeholder. “You seem really familiar. Don’t I know you?” she asks.

“We’ve never met,” I say. I know where she’s going. I just don’t want to help. I take another bite of the mourning cookie. “Ruth, never mind about me. Did Remy have a car?”

“A car? Yes. It’s here. In the apartment garage. The police went over it, didn’t find anything at all. He didn’t drive that night.”

“Okay. Who did he go out with?”

She lists names as easily as if they were her own lifelong friends. A kind of mantra, really. I make sure the recorder catches all of them, but the list sounds the same as what was in the files; I just like to be sure.

“Did Remy mention anything odd happening in the weeks before he disappeared?” I ask her. “Phone calls, emails, anything strange on his social media?”

“No. Nothing. He kept some old letters and cards from friends and girlfriends. Do you want those?”

“Yes,” I say. “I can just take photos of them, that way you can keep them. And anything about this Carol he was helping.”

She nods, but I can tell that she’s still thinking about me instead of her son. Maybe that’s better. I don’t know. “IknowI’ve seen you somewhere,” she says, and shakes her head. “Well. Let me get those things for you.” She stands up. I stand up too.

“Would you mind if I took a look around?” I ask her. “Just to get a sense of things.”

“Oh. Of course, you go right ahead.”

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