After losing my virginity at fifteen, I spent plenty of time experimenting. I’ve fucked so many people I stopped counting. But the more sex I had, the less I enjoyed it.
My tastes got darker, and it took more to get off than the effort was worth, so eventually, I stopped trying.
On occasion, I’d host an orgy and let some girls suck my cock while my friend fucked her so the guys wouldn’t think anything of me never bringing women back to my room. But even that has lost its appeal lately.
Tying them up didn’t work.
Making them hurt didn’t work.
Filling their throats with cum didn’t work.
I didn’t know what was wrong with me until the first time Teal wrapped her lips around my dick and took me to heaven. Until I sank inside her and didn’t want to immediately crawl out of my skin. Until I looked into her eyes, and I actually saw something.
She feels so good it hurts thinking about her belonging to anyone else.
She makes me lose control.
I stop in front of Teal, and she shifts her body toward me. It’s a whisper of a movement. So small she probably doesn’t even realize she’s doing it. But I see the gravity that pulls us into orbit.
“Is everything okay?” she asks, looking up at me.
“Everything’s fine.” I don’t elaborate because she doesn’t need to worry, and she doesn’t want to know.
Not really.
I tip her chin up, planting a soft kiss on her mouth, and I swear my soul returns home. Hell’s flames lick at my feet, but she holds my body here with her.
When I pull away, her eyes are still closed. And as desperate as I am to stare into the green depths, I drown in knowing she trusts herself in my hands.
Hands that will rip apart anything that’s caused her pain.
She blinks them open as her breath races. Her neck is red from the rush of excitement, and she has to break stares to try and fight what I do to her. I’ll make sure it doesn’t work, but it’s cute that she tries.
Her gaze drifts to where Mila is standing across the room, pretending to flirt with one of my initiates in an attempt to piss off Marco, who is watching her.
I don’t know why he’s still trying when getting her back would be pointless. He fucked so many girls while he was talking to Mila. I’m surprised she’s willing to even be in the same room as him.
Glancing back at Teal, I try to understand it.
What would be worth losing her?
A cheap fuck?
A blow job?
Nothing.
I’m tempted to sew us together so she can’t escape me ever again. Maybe Kole is right; I’m done for this girl.
Teal’s gaze continues to sweep the room until she spots a couple openly fucking on one of the couches. A few guys are standing around watching them, and Teal swallows hard as her lips press tight.
I rub my thumb down the center of her throat, and her gaze flicks to me. When she realizes she’s caught, her cheeks flush with embarrassment, but there’s no need. I don’t care if she watches, and I understand why she does. I listened to every second of her therapy sessions on a loop until I memorized everything there was to know about her.
Sex terrifies her after the assault she experienced as a child. She couldn’t put a face to the nightmares, so she used other people to do it. When she’s on the outside, she’s not the one being hurt, and she can imagine it all going differently.
Teal had never been with anyone before me because of that, and the fact that she handed herself over and trusted me with her is what sealed my devotion. Her jealousy might flare, and she might worry about the rumors, but I’m hers.
She claimed me just like I wanted.