Page 37 of Hard To Love

Chapter Thirteen

Ihad settledin a little early, looking to get a restful night’s sleep when the annoying ringing of my cell phone startled me at 1:30 AM. My hand fumbled in the dark searching for the device and when I got close enough to blink my eye open, Chase’s name flashed on the caller ID. “Chase, is everything okay?”

His heavy breathing could be heard on the other end of the line. “I’m outside your apartment. Open up your door!”

Still confused I sat up in bed rubbing my eyes, “What are you doing here?”

His words sounded a bit slurred when he demanded, “I want to see you, now let me in.”

I threw my covers off and slipped out of bed. “Have you been drinking?”

“Buzz me in and find out for yourself.” He chuckled.

Hmm, he sounded drunk and playful. A smile found its way to my face and I was suddenly excited to get to the door. This could be fun!

Trying not to wake up Cassie, I slipped on my bathrobe and padded over to the apartment door, opening it up so he wouldn’t have to knock and wake her up. I opened the door just as he was stepping off the elevator. He sauntered his way towards me looking all sexy male. My heart skipped a beat just at the sight of him. He was wearing a blue button down that matched his eyes and pair of jeans that looked edible enough to eat off him. He grabbed my arms pulling me towards him with an over-confident grin on his face.” Hey there, beautiful.”

Before I could respond, his mouth latched onto mine, causing a shudder to shoot through my body. My suspicions from earlier were confirmed when I tasted the liquor on his tongue. The anticipation as to what was to come had the heat forming between my legs. Somewhere between the lust and the fog, my brain remembered that we were standing out in the hallway where anyone could see us. Breaking away, my hand rested on his chest before pulling him into the apartment.

The door shut behind me, then next thing I knew, I was pinned up against the wall. He smiled, sliding his hand up over my breast. “Do you have any idea how much I’ve fucking missed you this week?”

My hands raked up his arms over his shoulders as his mouth found my neck. “I’ve missed you too.”

Our time apart only had me wanting more. I was desperate for him. I wanted to feel his skin, his warmth, his touch. I wanted it all. I wanted whatever he would give, but I knew I could never get enough. No matter how much he gave of himself, I would always be starved for more. He was addictive and I was starting to realize that I had a problem. And if Chase was my drug of choice, then I would welcome the pleasure that he provided. I didn’t care about the consequences and the damage that he could do to my heart. As long as I had him, I didn’t need anything else.

His knee pushed my legs open as his chest beat rapidly against mine. The sultry look in his eyes told me he meant business. He was a man who was determined, and I was a woman who was willing to give him what he wanted. His body had me pressed so tight against the wall, every cell in my body had awakened. I reached out to grab his face then crashed my mouth to his. The ache I had between my legs was growing by the second and judging by the size of his erection pressed against me, his was too.

My hands reached out and pushed his shoulders back. I pulled away from his mouth so I could speak. “My bedroom, now,” I rasped out while pulling him across the room.

“Wait, I don’t have protection on me. I didn’t plan on coming here tonight.”

“That’s okay. We’re good. I’m on the pill.”

He shot me a playful smirk as we made our way down the hall. “Have I ever told you how fucking sexy you are when you take the lead?”

“Shh.” My finger pressed against his lips encouraging his silence. “You need to keep quiet so you don’t wake up my roommate.”

He snorted at my scolding while staggeringinto my bedroom. “I don’t give a fuck about your roommate.” As soon as I shut the door his hands reached out and yanked me against his hard length. “I can’t wait to be inside you.”

His hands went around my waist pulling me closer so his mouth could latch onto mine. Between his words and his touch, my body was selfishly craving him in ways that were foreign to me. Never in my life have I had the need or desire that I did with him. His grip tightened around me as if he could silently read my thoughts.

Fisting my hands in his shirt, my fingers grabbed onto the material pulling him backwards towards my bed. My knees folded under me while my body collapsed onto the soft mattress. Once I leaned back on my elbows and lifted my head to meet his, his eyes forced my body to go still. Whatever ounce of control I was holding onto earlier had disappeared. His eyes trailed over my body and the anticipation of what he would do had my insides buzzing with electricity.

“You’re driving me so crazy, that I can’t fucking think straight. Those text messages you sent me today, my god, do you have any idea how turned on I am right now? What are you doing to me, Emily?”

My heartbeat quickened as he inched closer. “I could ask you the same thing.”

He inhaled a deep breath as his stare swept over me. “You are so fucking beautiful. I want to fuck every man before me out of your system and erase every other memory from your body.”

His powerful words frightened me as my brain fought to absorb them. I didn’t want to think that deep, it was too much. So, I pushed them away and focused on our physical connection before he saw more than I was ready for him to see.

“Chase, I’m all yours.” I signaled, letting him know that I was ready to satisfy him instead of baring my fucking soul. Because, if he didn’t take me now my mouth was going to start blurting out words that I wouldn’t be able to take back.

Slowly, he removed my camisole tank top while trailing feather-like kisses down my arm and back up my neck. A raw need intensified, mixing with anticipation as it traveled down to my very core. I ran my fingers through his hair as his kisses continued their journey across my skin. He cupped my breasts in his hands, drawing his face and tongue towards my chest. At first, I felt the soft heat of his breath until he started to gently suck and bite, alternating between each nipple, being careful to make sure they received equal attention.

As he looked at me from beneath his lashes I saw so much emotion in his eyes. I didn’t ever want to break eye contact. “Your body is addictive. I can’t stop thinking about you. Tell me you’ve missed me as much as I’ve missed you.” He commanded.

His words caused my chest to rise and fall and my need for him was growing by the second. “I’ve missed you so much Chase, please don’t stop.” My shaky voice pleaded with him.

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