Page 41 of Hard To Love

“It’s okay,” I said against his mouth, “I get why you were so upset. It was stupid and careless to keep that conversation from you.”

“Yes, it was, that’s why you need to promise me that from now on no matter what, you’ll talk to me, okay? No more keeping things from me.”

“Deal,” I said as he leaned in kissing the top of my head. The thick heavy air still lingered around us, I wanted to steer this conversation back to a more comfortable, familiar footing. I looked up at him. “Now, that we got that out of the way, is it time for make-up sex yet?” I asked teasingly.

The corners of his mouth lifted in a smile. He drew me in and planted another kiss on the top of my head. “Oh sweetheart, you don’t even have to ask.” His hold on me tightened as his tone turned serious. “I need you to understand something first.” I pulled back slightly as his eyes roamed over my face. “I’m a very jealous man, especially when it comes to you, so please have a little patience with me.”

“Done.” As far as I was concerned, I had dodged a bullet. I wasn’t stupid. He was willing to forgive me. I wasn’t going to do anything to jeopardize our relationship again. Lesson learned.

A smile landed on my face as my heart swelled with love for him. Those three words were circling around in the back of my mouth, fighting to come out, but I didn’t dare want to risk the chance of scaring him away after I just got him back.

His hand reached out, and cradled my face in its strong grip. I leaned into his touch, as my eyes closed absorbing the silence that stretched between us. There was more spoken in that moment than any words could convey. The ache in my heart only intensified when he brushed his thumb across my cheek. My feelings for him ran so much deeper than they ever had for Brad.

His kiss reached for my mouth as I opened my waiting lips for him. I allowed him to claim me and take what was his. The need to show him what my words were afraid to tell him was growing deeper by the second. Every part of my body craved him, needed him. I thought I knew what love was when I was with Brad, but I didn’t. It was a sweet, innocent, and a pure first love. But, what I felt for Chase, there was no comparison. He challenged me and pushed me out of my comfort zone. He tested me every time we were together; making me want him more and more.

In a short period of time, he had taken a part of me, piece by piece, without me even realizing it. Even though there was so much I still didn’t know about him, I already knew what was deep in his heart. I knew how strong and confident he was and how passionate and intense he could be. I knew it wasn’t just lust that I felt, but there was plenty of that too! He made me feel things that only he could. Who says you have to be with somebody a long while to have feelings for them?

I was more aware of my feelings than ever before. For the first time in my life, I followed my heart instead of my head.

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