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“Maybe I should back away and give you the time you need to get your life figured out.”

I rested my head along the wall, feeling the tears spring to my eyes. “It sounds like you’re giving up on me.”

“Never.” His voice was quiet. “I’m just trying to give you what you need.”

“You know that I love you, right?”

“I don’t doubt that you love me. You just need a minute to focus on Emery and to process what this new reality means for you both.”

My body felt numb. I didn’t blame him for feeling the way he did. It’s what I’d been asking for. I just wished there was something I could do to take his worry away.

Up until this point, I’d been so focused on myself and my situation, that I hadn’t allowed myself to see things from his point of view. He knew how difficult this was for me and he was putting my needs before his own.

My throat all of a sudden became thick with emotion. “Just because I need a minute, doesn’t mean that I don’t want a life with you.” The line went quiet. “I know I sound selfish, but I can’t lose you.”

“You can’t get rid of me that easily,” he teased and it felt good. “You and I will be fine. I know we will. Just focus on you and Emery. I’m not going anywhere.”

I clutched my throat feeling slightly relieved. “Do you still want us to spend Thanksgiving with you and your family?”

“Of course, I do.”

“Okay then. We will be there.”

He let out a deep sigh. I heard voices in the background. “I gotta go. I’ll see you soon. Give Emery a kiss for me.”

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

He disconnected the call. I closed my eyes and rubbed my stomach. I needed to buy a damn pregnancy test sooner rather than later.

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