Page 434 of Blood and Ruin: The Complete Series

Luka frowns. “Nervous about what?”

“Whether or not I’ll be a good mother…”

Luka reaches up and brushes my cheek. “Of course you’ll be a good mother. The best. Why would you think otherwise?”

“I don’t know, I think I was just overthinking it… After everything we’ve been through…” I shake my head, not understanding what I was thinking myself. Just because we all went through something horrible doesn’t mean our trauma will affect our children. It just means we’ve been made stronger. That we’ve had a harder road than some, but we still got there in the end.

No one is perfect. Not one person, God, supe or entity. We’re all flawed beings capable of mistakes. But those mistakes mean we can learn. Learn to be better. Learn to heal. Learn to move on. And it’s only through that do we grow. And that’s how I know everything will be okay. That, and the fact that I have my guys. Always by my side.

Luka gives me a warm smile. “Baby, you’re going to be the best mother ever.”

“It was just for a moment, but then I realized I have all you and no matter what we do, or go through, once we have each other, we can get through it all.”

Kai smiles. “And that’s never going to change.”

“I know.” I tell them. Relief spears through the room as the guys gather around me in one big group hug full of happiness.

“It all makes sense now.” Jax nods to himself.

Axel looks at him like he’s crazy. “How the hell does it all make sense?”

Jax shrugs. “I’ve been feeling extra stabby lately. Especially anytime anyone comes near Kiarra. It doesn’t matter who they are. If they’re not one of us, I want to gut them.”

A look of realization slashes across their faces, as if agreeing with Jax’s little epiphany.

And now that I think of it, the guys have been a little over the top lately with their possessiveness. A representative from Staten Island came by the other day and Jax practically attacked him. Luka, who is normally the voice of reason, actually agreed with him. Rion wanted to cut him, and Kai thought he should be brought down to his basement for alittle talk. Axel wanted to light him on fire.

“Yeah, maybe tone down the possessiveness a bit.” From the non-existent bump I have, it’s obvious that I’m not that far along, I can’t image having to put up with their crazy for another seven or eight months.

Jax laughs, but it’s not a nice laugh. He moves closer to me. “If you think we’ve been over the top lately, wait until you find out just how worse we get now that we know you’re carrying our child. And good fucking luck to anyone who tries to get near her.”

“Her?”Luka asks him.

Jax glances around the room, a contemplative look on his face. “It has to be a girl.”

Axel rolls his eyes at him. “Why does ithaveto be a girl?”

Jax turns, looking at Axel like he’s the crazy one now. “Because Kiarra is fucking perfect, soobviously, she can only create perfection. Which is a mini-Kiarra,duh.”

Axel opens his mouth, more than likely to disagree with Jax, when he pauses and shrugs. “True.”

I smile, shaking my head at both of them as Rion steps in front of me. He leans down, a small smile on his face and a sparkle in his eyes.

“Once both you and the baby are healthy and happy, it doesn’t matter what the baby is.” He brushes his lips against mine, whispering soft words of encouragement in my ear before pulling back.

The others nod, with Jax agreeing. “True. But even if it is a girl or boy, there’s always next time.”

I roll my eyes at him. “I’m barely pregnant and you’re already thinking about the next baby?”

Jax nods his head. “Of course. I want a whole house of them. All mini-Kiarra’s running around, causing havoc with me.”

I frown wondering where his thought process has gone now. “Why would they be causing havoc?”

Jax gives me a look. “Because they’re mini-Kiarra’s and havoc follows you.”

“Not anymore.” Maybe before but that was completely out of my control… mostly.

The guys give me a pointed look.

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