Page 26 of Some Saviors Can Break You

As soon as she’d gotten the call, she had come right to Jana’s apartment. Part of her had expected Eli to be waiting outside her building to pick her up, and she had to admit she was a little disappointed to find that he wasn't. She’d enjoyed learning more about him last night, and the way his face lit up when he talked about the family he had loved and lost had touched her, making her wish she’d had that same kind of family.

Although she wasn't quite ready to admit that pizza in the back of his car constituted a date, it had been fun, and after they’d discussed families, they’d talked about all sorts of things. Hobbies, sports, music, things they liked and things they didn't, and by the time they got to her apartment, she’d been tempted to invite him up.

She’d resisted though.

She liked Eli, underneath the cockiness and the charming veneer there was a real softie. The way he talked about how much he’d enjoyed spending time with his mom told her that he had a big heart, and that he wasn't afraid to get in touch with his softer side when he was with people he cared about.

He’d certainly been patient with her even though she had insisted over and over again that she wasn't going to go on a date with him. His persistence was beginning to break through her barriers, and maybe soon she would be ready to go on a real date.

The idea didn't fill her with anxiety like it usually did.

She had never dated seriously, never wanted to put herself in a situation to be hurt by men the way her mother had been, never wanted to be left raising kids alone. Once she had sworn off the whole casual dating with guys she met in bars, she’d expected that if she ever did settle down it would be with someone who could never disappoint her. Someone nice and boring and predictable and stable.

And then Eli had come barreling—literally—into her life, and she realized she was falling for the opposite of everything she’d believed she wanted.

He could have any woman he wanted, so why would he choose her?

What happened when—if—he lost interest in her at some point, and decided he wanted someone in his own league, his own world? Would he abandon her and any children they shared? He would no doubt make her sign a pre-nuptial agreement—not that she would mind—before they got married, if they divorced, would he provide for their children or turn his back on them like her own father had?

Her phone chimed with a message, and she pulled it out, smiling when she saw it was a message from Eli.

Eli

Thanks to you I was late to a meeting this

morning. I dreamed about your mouth on

me and had to take a long cold shower

when I got up

Her cheeks burned, but she couldn’t help but chuckle, she’d had to take a cold shower this morning too because she’d dreamed about Eli’s mouth touring her body, teasing her, pleasuring her,making her come so hard she’d been unable to think, even in her dreams.

Florence

Good morning to you too

Eli

Sorry, where are my manners, good

morning my little sex kitten

Florence

How do you know I’m a sex kitten?

We haven't had sex.

Nor are we going to any time soon

Eli

Why do you torture me?

Florence

It amuses me to see you beg ;-)

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