Page 60 of Love Off Course

She turns to look out at the ocean. The waves are still pissed, churning violently. The moon, however, is calm and bright andhuge. It casts an illuminating glow across the water and her milky white thighs. I rub my palm up and down, unable to keep from touching her.

“It’s so pretty here. How could you ever want to leave?”

Her words sting, just like the little bee she is.

“I always craved more out of life. I felt like I didn’t have enough of what I was looking for here. Out there…” I trail off and shrug. “Out there, the more is endless.”

“What happens when you find it all? Headed to the moon next, bird boy?”

I chuckle. “I never thought that far ahead.”

“What if you never find what you’re looking for?”

“What if I already found it?”

We grow silent, neither of us brave enough to venture further into that conversation. I refuse to consider the more with Sheridan. Not because I don’t want to—because I really fucking do—but because it’s not fair to either of us.

I fly and have my dad in Florida.

She runs a massive corporation in California.

We’re busy and committed to our careers.

Her sigh is heavy and sad. One I feel all the way down to my toes. Kind of fucked up. Meeting a girl who could be the one knowing it’s just a taste or a tease of something you can’t have. Sure, I could have her, but at what cost? Am I ready to root myself to be with one girl?

Right now, hell yes.

The answer is a thousand yesses.

Tomorrow?

Maybe.

The next day? The month after? Next year?

At some point, the roots would begin to feel like quicksand, pulling me deep into the earth until I can’t breathe. The thoughtof being stuck anywhere—even with the prettiest girl I’ve ever known—is suffocating.

“Ready to go back?”

“Depends.”

“On what?”

“If you’re going to stay the night with me or not.”

“I should take you back to your villa so you can get some rest,” I murmur.

“Then no. I’ll stay right here in your lap for the rest of the night.”

I chuckle. “Little bee, I said I should. We both know I won’t rest until I’ve been inside you again. So I should take you back, and I will. I’m just coming with you.”

“Then yes. Let’s go, bird boy.”

Music plays loudlyfrom Eddy’s, but we bypass it to head toward Sheridan’s villa. Estefania must be at the restaurant with everyone else, because she’s not there. Thank fuck. Not that I don’t like Sheridan’s new friend, it’s just I don’t want to share my girl right now. We’re on borrowed time.

After I lead her inside, I shut and lock the door. I walk into the bathroom and start the shower. She’s naked by the time I shed my clothes. My eyes roam down her perfect body. She’s thin but has some muscle tone. Her tits are a perfect handful with the rosiest, perkiest nipples I’ve ever seen. It takes everything in me to tear my gaze from her to check the temperature of the water. Once I deem it acceptable, I grab her hand and pull her under the spray with me.

It’s strange.

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