Page 18 of Her Loyalty

"Listen, T. I apologize for acting like that with you."

"I had a lot of shit on my mind already and you coming to get that phone kind of put the icing the cake for me."

"I was in my own head and I shouldn't have just took that shit out on you, ma."

"You know I ain't never tryna make you cry. Ever." He spoke sternly and I nodded, listening to his words.

"I do everything I can to keep a smile on that pretty face, baby. I don't ever want to see you cry, especially not because of some bullshit I did."

"That ain't even my character." He went on.

"And I ain't accusing you of nothing, I know nobody can't have my girl. We five, gon' on six years in.." He trailed off.

"I trust you with my life, T."

"You hear me. I trust you with everything in me, baby." He said again for confirmation and my lip trembled.

Hearing those words broke my heart more than ever as I listened closely. He didn't deserve any of this. I had to come out, I had to tell him.

"Dom. Babe. I need to tell-"

"Na', let me finish." He went on, clearing his throat.

"I trust you and I'a never go through your phone on some insecure shit."

"You hear me?" He went on and I nodded sadly.

"Yes, I hear you."

I was ruining everything, I knew once he found out about this, we would be done for good. There was no coming back after this. No way.

But I had to finally stand up and say something. It was well worth it rather than keeping these lies going for so long. I'd just hold on to hope that one day we'd be able to work through it.

"Babe, before you go on." I trailed off.

"I really need to talk to you about something."

"Aight. Go ahead, ma. I'm all ears." He said before I sighed deeply, watching a car pull up behind me.

Fuck. Connor parents.I thought to myself.

"Okay, look. I'm going to call you before I go to bed tonight and we're going to talk about something important. Okay?"

"Why we can't talk now?"

"Because babe, the dinner is still happening snd I need to get inside." I watched as my mother stood at the front door, welcoming Connor's parents.

"Aight. Well don't forget to call me. I want to hear your voice before I go to sleep, ma."

"Okay, I promise I won't forget." I expressed to him.

"Aight. I love you."

"I love you too." I spoke softly before ending the call.

Once I did, I sat there for a while, collecting my words for what I would say to him tonight. I was going to tell him the truth and I needed it all to be clear.

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