Page 55 of Her Loyalty

"I let the bitch suck my dick but I wore a condom when she did it then she wanted me to fuck on her and I was gon' to because of the way I was feeling about you but I didn't."

"I couldn't." He spoke bluntly and though I mentally prepared myself, it still hurt to hear.

"Hm." I closed my eyes, trying to keep my tears in tact.

"Well I guess you had the right to let her.." I trailed off, heartbroken.

"Let her do that to you." I went on.

"And at least you did it while we weren't together."

"What that mean?" He asked and I looked down at my fingers, preparing myself to drop this bomb.

"Well.."

"I let Connor give me head one time when we were going through an argument." I admitted and I heard him scoff.

"Yeah, I know. That bitch ass nigga told me. I just wanted to see if you was gon' admit that shit."

"Really?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

Here I was scared to even tell him and he already knew.

"Yeah.." He trailed off, making me tuck my lips.

"I'm sorry." I ended up saying and the line went quiet again.

"What made you do it?" He ended up asked after a few seconds went by.

"Well, it was that one time when we were all outside and you were selling drugs behind my back. You kept telling me to go in the house and get you things, just so that you could hurry up and sell something while I wasn't there." I expressed and he smacked his lips.

"So that made you go and-"

"I was feeling disrespected, Dominic." I cut him off, defending myself.

"You don't know how it feels to feel that way and then go and be treated another way with someone else. I was vulnerable and I was mad at you."

"I did it because I was surely going to break up with you." I went on and he sighed.

"Well I never knew you felt a way, T. You ain't said shit about it afterwards so I figured you ain't give a fuck."

"If you really felt a way, you should've just said something. Not go and do some crazy shit like that." He went on, explaining his anger.

"Yeah, I know." I nodded in agreement.

"And if anything, it was out of respect. I vowed to never sell drugs in front of you and I meant that shit."

"Really wun' nothing to get upset about but I apologize for upsetting you, I guess." He scoffed while I looked down, feeling horrible.

As the line went silent again, I just prayed and hoped that he'd come to his senses. I just wanted him to tell me that we were going to be alright. That we were going to try and work it out.

Our story deserved a happy ending. It was only right.

"Listen, Tiana." He finally spoke up as if he was reading my mind.

"I know you said you don't want me to talk to you no more and we probably won't ever be good again, considering the circumstances.." He trailed off.

"But I was just calling to make sure you were good, ma."

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