Page 56 of Her Loyalty

"Though I'm mad as shit and I don't forgive you for the shit you did. We was friends first and you was the love of my life for six years, you know?" He went on and I nodded my head, listening intently.

"Well yeah." I shrugged.

"And like I said, my eye is fine."

"But you know like I know, I'm not fine on the inside." I admitted, looking down at my fingers.

"I ain't good either, ma." He admitted too, breaking my heart even more.

"And they way I'm feeling about that cheating shit.." He trailed off.

"I just can't take you back, T."

"I'm just not on that level with you no more." He admitted and it broke me down more than anything else he's said today. This was like the icing on the cake for me.

"I-" He started but stopped, sighing deeply.

"I loved you." He went on.

"I mean, I still love you, ma."

"But love just ain't enough no more to make me stay witcha. Love can't make this work."

"Trust." He said.

"I need to trust you if I'm gon' be with you and I just don't."

"Not no more, T." He went on and I nodded slowly, understanding everything that he was saying to me.

"I-I understand." I expressed to him. I had no choice but to understand. This was all my fault. I had to own up to that and deal with the consequences, whether I liked them or not.

"I should've been honest with you from the start. I should've just told you what my mom was trying to do and maybe none of this would've even happened."

"And maybe we could've worked." My voice cracked, tears slowly falling from my eyes.

"I'm sorry for cheating and lying to you."

"I'm sorry for taking everything we had for granted."

"And, I'm sorry we couldn't make it to six years." My lip trembled before I took a deep breath.

"I'm just so sorry, Dominic. You loved me and I treated your love like a throw away."

"I should've never did that to you. You didn't deserve that." I went on, venting to him.

"And what makes me even sadder is I know I'm never going to find another person that'll loves me as much as you did."

"As much you do."

"Never." I went on.

"Because people aren't out here loving like they should. Most of these men hate women. They don't even like their significant others. They just enjoy fucking them." I spat.

"Now I have to put myself out there again, at the risk of being hurt by one of these assholes when I could've been loved properly by you."

"No doubts. No questions asked." I went on, sobbing now. I was beginning to realize that we were really over.

"Dominic, I love you and I'm sorry I just couldn't be the girl you needed."

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