Page 44 of Gorgeous Nightmare

You were the woman of my nightmares.

So I ask one last thing of you.

Remember that when the darkness starts to feel empty without me, know that I never truly left.

I’ll be in the shadows.

Protecting you like I wasn’t able to before.

You were never mine to keep, but Gods, I loved pretending.

Always and forever your shadow,

Ronan.

I sink to the floor, the letter clutched against my chest. The scent of him, lavender and rain water on burned wood, floods my senses.

He smells like protection and ruin.

I let out a wail loud enough to wake the dead. The tears streaming down my face like waterfalls.

He’s gone.

My sweet boy is gone.

My lungs seize up, my breaths coming out in ragged bursts as the panic permeates my chest.

He left me.

He walked straight into the devil's arms for me, and now I’m just supposed to sit back and enjoy life.

No. No. No. No.

My curled body moves back and forth, trying anything to stop the onslaught of bad thoughts and panic running through my system.

I’m shaking.

The door creaks open slowly as Ash peeks her head in, scanning the room slowly.

We lock eyes.

“Get me the fuck in there,” I rasp, my voice shaking.

“Aisling-”

“He sacrificed himself to Lilith. My mother. I know it’s her, I can feel it,” I growl, pointing to my stomach where the raven skull is radiating with energy.

She doesn’t ask again. She already knows my answer.

“Alright then, let’s go kill a god.”

I hold the letter in my hands, grasping it like it will bring him back.

But I know it won’t.

I breathe out deeply, trying to muster any kind of strength I can as I prepare myself forher.

I know my mother took him. I can feel it in my bones. I sigh silently, praying to whatever Gods are listening to help me get him out of this… even if it’sonlyhim.

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