Page 18 of Conveniently Theirs

“Such language, darlin’.” She was so cute when she asked and now her embarrassment is adorable. “Yes, I can, Keni. And I will.”

“Now?”

“Yes.” I settle between her parted thick thighs and capture a nipple between my thumb and forefinger, giving a sharp tug. “You’ve really never?”

“Really, really. I never wanted anyone but you.”

My cock is hard, the blood pounding through it matches the throbbing pulse at the base of Keni’s throat. “Help me in, Keni.”

One hand wrapped around me, she sighs. “You’re going to feel so good.”

“Ah, yes we will.” The head touches her wet heat and I grit my teeth. I won’t slam into her. I need to go slow, to treasure her first time, the gift she saved for me. “That’s it, Keni.Slow and easy.”

“I’d rather go fast.”

“Next time. This experience, this time is special.”

“Stop talking. Oh, god, Josh. I’ve never felt anything like this. Like you.”

“Good. Move your hand, darlin’, I’m almost there.” She releases my cock and slides her hand up my side. We both hold our breath as I slide home.

“Josh. Oh… yes… that’s…”

I freeze in an attempt to regain control over my body. I want to make this time so good, so special for her. For us both and?—.

“Fuck.” I jerk free from her body and closing my eyes against the surprise and rejection in Keni’s expression, flop to the side. “Hell. Shit. Damn.”

Keni sits and tugs the sheet over her full breasts. “What did I do? Josh?”

I can’t allow her to believe I reject her in any way. I struggle to my knees on the soft mattress and hold out my hand. “Never, darlin’. Rejection, leaving you unsatisfied in any way is the furthest thing in my mind. At least in what little’s left that’s not filled with how much I need you. Want you…”

She shakes her head and ignores my offer to hold her.

“Kendall, please. Please let me hold you while I explain.”

Another head shake. “I can’t risk that. Can’t risk falling into the hope of you, only to be forgotten or ignored. You’re all I ever wanted until…”

Her words fade and she covers her face with her hands. I inch closer and gently uncover her eyes. “We’ve got a lot to talk about, don’t we?”

“Yes. Why did you stop? You, I… it felt so good. So right. And almost perfect.”

She makes me smile. “Almost?”

There’s something in her expression that reminds me of—hell, I don’t know what. But it’s there, the reason is niggling at the back of my mind.

“Either tell me why you stopped or get the hell out of my bed. I can’t deal with partial emotions. Josh, I love you. I want a physical relationship with you during our fake marriage. Tell me.”

“I don’t have a condom.” I hope she hears the regret in my words.

“This is about protection?” The sad worry in her eyes fades.

“Yes. I, uh…hadn’t planned on this.” I waggle my finger indicating the two of us. “So I’m not prepared.”

“You and Devin are monogamous, yes?”

“Yes. Have been for years. At least until now.” Bringing one of her hands to my lips I kiss her palm. “Because of the way the world is now, we still get checked a couple times a year anyway.”

“And I’ve never been with anyone so I’m clean. No diseases or cooties.”

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