Page 214 of Inside the Sun

He leans in closer, his face just inches from mine. And for yet another time, I notice how perfectly shaped his lips are.

"We should probably seal the deal, by Joining. They can’t separate us then for sure…" I mumble, feeling waves of heat, my hole just can't stop clenching, I need a hard fuck, my prostate is gearing up.

"For sure! And… I’m planning to beat the ridiculous charges they’ve got on me," Sun says, voice low and almost… sensual. "So if I get out, you get out too." He winks. "Got any unfinished business out there?"

I open my mouth to say yes.

Hell yes! I’ve got a whole list of people I need to kill. Torture. Destroy…

Wait.

Do I?

And then… something shifts.

It hits me like lightning.

I’ve just been handed a gift. Something Ineverearned. Not after all the shit I did, not after I kept the fucked-up cycle of violence going, the one my father and brothers started, the one I dove into headfirst and never once looked back.

But this good thing found me anyway. Undeserved. Fucking undeserved! I should be in hell, rotting, burning… But Fate still showed me mercy. For the first time, I was grantedmercy.

How do I use it?

Maybe I should find a way to repay it. To pass it on.

For once, I'm glad I never told Rocco details about Summer's power. Because now I feel like I gave them an equal chance.

"No," I say slowly, and my voice is different now. Quieter. Softer even, like something inside me is finally defrosting. "There’s nothing I need to take care of. Everything in my life has led exactly to this moment."

That onepath, Moon’s impossible path, materialized.

How could I possibly punish the people whosetme on it?

I let my eyes drift half-shut as Sun leans in. His lips hover near mine. Kisses have been rare in my life, only with Moon. No one else.

"You’re so hot," Sun mumbles.

And when his lips barely brush mine, I feel it.

I can be free, in a way. Even in prison. And maybe even happy?

"As you said, we need to close the circuit so they can’t separate us," Sun adds, his lips moving over the skin of my cheek.

"Oh yes, definitely…" I whisper back, my breath deepening, my hands finding their way to his chest.

All I want is to know what it feels like to be happy. Just once. No revenge. No hate. No anger.

Sun tilts his head back and watches me for a beat, then slowly pulls me into his arms and just… holds me! No one ever does. Never. Not even Moon. But Sun does it. He just holds me…

A shiver of pure bliss runs through me. Can it be that simple?

"And then… we’re starting fresh?"

"Yes. We’re starting fresh."

SUN (Nolan)

Two hours after dropping Hunter off at the intersection, we’re getting close to my parents’ house.

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