Page 67 of Love Potion

My jaw drops and it takes me a second to process his words. “What are you saying?”

He smiles as his eyes turn glassy with unshed tears. “I’m in love with you too. I’m pretty sure I have been for a long time, but I wouldn’t let myself go there. Like you said earlier, maybe that’s why I never clicked with anyone else. I was always comparing them to you.”

“Jerr…” I can only manage a whisper as it sinks in.

“I convinced myself that there was no way because you’d need more than I could give, so I tried to bury it. All this started because I wanted you to feel free to go out and find love, not feel obligated to spend time with me.”

“What do you mean?”

“I went to the seminars so I could figure myself out and maybe find a way to date successfully. I thought if I did that, you’d go out too. I thought I was holding you back.”

“You know better now?”

He nods. “It still feels like I might wake up any second and realize you’re still just my best friend, and we’re still just hanging out together, and I made up all the other stuff.”

“You didn’t, sweet stuff. You’re awake.”

He nods, blowing out a breath. “So in the office, I imagined something else.”

“Tell me.”

“We were naked, and I put you in my mouth.”

His words surprise me, but my body reacts immediately, heating up and sending tendrils of desire winding through me. “How did you feel?”

“I felt…” His expression softens. “I felt it, Bane. I didn’t panic. I just sat there and let my mind take me on a trip.”

I’m blown away.

“And finally, after imagining what it would feel like to have your cock in my mouth and knowing how you would look at me and talk to me, hearing your satisfied moans… it happened.”

“What happened?”

“I got hard.” A bright smile graces his face. “And I mean actually hard. Not a brief twinge. I was so excited I almost ran out to show you.”

“I wish you would’ve texted me to come back.”

“Oh.” He blinks rapidly. “I didn’t think of that.” Jerryn grabs my hand, squeezing it. “But I got hard from thinking about us together. I never do that.”

“Fantasize?”

He shakes his head. “Never. I guess I didn’t ever feel like I wanted to. When I was younger, I tried watching porn, but it didn’t do anything for me. Watching people I don’t know get it on had no effect on me. I tried a couple of times with guys I was dating, and I convinced myself I was feeling it, but what I felt today was completely different. It made me lightheaded and I cried a little.”

“Babe…”

“But it proved something.” He exhales slowly. “I’m not broken, and I can feel sexual things. I can want them. I think the missing link was you.”

“Me?”

“It’s the demi part I didn’t get. I have to feel safe and loved, and those are two things I haven’t felt in any of my other relationship attempts. The connection you and I have is special and unique, and it’s even better now. Bane…” He swallows hard. “For the first time ever, I really, really want to make love. I want to have sex with you, and I want to do all the things I’ve only ever wondered about.”

I can’t believe my ears. “There’s still no rush, Jerr. We can take it slow.”

“We’ve been taking it slow. I think twenty years is long enough, don’t you?”

“Are you sure it’s not because of what I said earlier? I don’t expect sex just because I’m in love with you.”

“I know that. In a way it is because you told me that, but not because I feel pressured or because I think I’m obligated.” His voice cracks. “It’s because I know you’re the man I’ve waited forall my life. It’s not a fantasy that we can be together. It’s real, and I’m safe. Finally.”

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