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Gage smirks as he leans over my face, bringing his lips to mine. “It means I did my job as your husband. Made you come so good you can’t walk after.”

“Only you have ever made me come like this.” Nobody could ever compare to Gage. He makes every guy I’ve ever been with a laughable experience.

“Well, you’ve erased anyone I’ve ever been with. You are peak perfection, pretty girl. When I say I’m obsessed with you and this pussy, you better believe it.” He reaches for the test on the table and lies down next to me. I snuggle into his side and he holds it up before us. I kiss right over his heart and I can feel it beating wildly, probably feeling the same thing I am.

Nervous.

Excited.

Scared shitless.

“Ready?” He asks, gripping the end of the test. I nod and he pulls it out.

“It’s backwards. Flip it over, Gage.” I let out a snicker.

He flips the test over and we both hold our breath.

My chest constricts, and I can feel the moisture building in the creases and I try to hide the sniffle.

Only one line.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt disappointment like this before. I didn’t even know I wanted it this much, but this feeling inside tells me I do. I grab the test from him and head straight to the bathroom.

“Ale,” Gage’s voice follows me. “It was a long shot that you’d get pregnant the first try,Hermosa. You know that, don’t you?” I flick the bathroom light on and I stare at the test, almost willing that second line to appear.

Come on.

Please.

“I know.” I whisper.I know.

“We can try again.” Gage whispers in my ear as his hands grip my hips and pull me back against his chest.

“I just wanted… to be pregnant before you deployed again. I know that sounds crazy.”Because it is crazy. Especially since I would do all the hard stuff alone with no help.

“It’s not crazy. I wanted you pregnant before I deployed too.” He sighs, kissing my shoulder. “Then maybe you’d be too busy to miss me.”

“It would make me miss you even more.” I turn around and hold his face in my hands. “Anytime you leave this house, I miss you.”

“Same, pretty girl. I probably drive the guys crazy in my unit now with how much I talk about you.” He leans in, kissing me, gripping my thighs, picking me up, and sitting me on the vanity. “I’ve been called pathetic a few times.”

I kiss his neck, careful not to get too carried away.No marks.“You’re not pathetic,amor.”

“Oh, I totally am. I’m so pathetically in love with you, Alejandra.” He takes the test out of my hands, tossing it in thetrash, and picks me up, his lips back on mine. “And I’ll gladly accept it, because it means I have you.”

“You’ll always have me, Gage. Until the end.” I kiss his forehead.

“Until the end,” he whispers as he lays me down on the bed and covers us up with the comforter. “Let’s just sleep, pretty girl. Tomorrow’s Friday and then we’ll have the whole weekend to make a baby.”

Gage turns off the bedside lamp and wraps his arms around me, and I slowly fall asleep to the sound of his breath on my neck.

TWENTY-FOUR

GAGE

The judge stares at me over the rim of her glasses, probably doing what every other person in this room is doing. Judging me because I’m a service member that’s found himself in a shitty predicament. It’s not like I’m some reckless guy that’s just out there fucking everyone under the sun without protection. I did my part. I wore a condom.

I shouldn’t have been fucking her in the first place is the problem.

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