He was tight. I got lost in the feel of him, his body beneath me, around me. He said my name, over and over.
I tucked another finger in and he began to shake.
“Hold still, now,” I said, and he did his very best, as he always did. He shook beneath me in hard clenches. His hips twitched constantly, his shoulders tightened and released. He was up onhis elbows again and he dropped his head low, letting it hang. He was trembling so much that his arse was quivering. And what a sight that was.
Without warning I pulled my fingers free and lay down over him. I took a round, firm cheek in each hand and slid my shaft between them. I didn’t try to enter him. I wasn’t hard enough to do it, and I didn’t need to. This was enough.
“Yes,” Sayan was whispering, “Erik, please.Please. Please, Erik.”
I held his cheeks together and began to thrust. I groaned at the familiar sensations, at the pull in my thighs, in my hips. The tension low in my abdomen.
While I wasn’t on Sayan’s level as a lover, I had been good at this, once.
Apparently, I was good at it still.
Sayan was rolling beneath me, doing his best to meet my thrusts. He was endearingly clumsy at it; it was, after all, familiar to me but new to him. He adjusted his pace, his rhythm, trying his best to work his arse back against me as I worked against him.
I smacked a hand down on his right buttock—not a slap but a sharp grab, and I dug my fingers in.
Sayan cried out, high and surprised, and came suddenly.
He was beautiful as he did it, writhing in long, spasming pulses. I squeezed him tighter around my cock, which only made him moan louder and jerk harder. I thrust against him again and again and again, the thrill of watching him come undone beneath me rising and rising.
The pleasure crested and spilled through my body, billowing through me and leaving me energised and thrumming. But I didn’t climax as I once used to. I’d thought, for a moment, that I might…but no.
I gazed down at where Sayan lay spent and sated between my legs. His head was turned to one side. His eyes were closed and his lips curled in a dreamy smile. His large, strong body shimmered with relaxation.
Even though he was lying in the wet spot.
I slowed my thrusts to something gentler, enjoying the sensation of pushing between his tight buttocks, entranced by the erotic sight of it. Sayan lifted a heavy arm and reached back to clasp my thigh.
“Yes,” he said, and held on, pulling me forwards gently.
I took it to mean keep going, and I did, for a while.
He moved with me subtly, the same way I’d seen him do when he talked to me of his lake, as if even when he wasn’t in it, he still felt its currents flowing through him.
My heart rate slowed and so, eventually, did my movements, until I stopped with a sigh and draped myself over him.
He breathed deeply. I rose on his inhales and fell on his exhales. We lay there together in silence. I felt his heart beat back against mine.
“I love you, Erik,” he said quietly.
“I love you.” I parted the warm, damp hair at the base of his neck and kissed him there at the very top of his spine.
He lifted up, rolling me until we were lying on our sides. He tangled our legs together, and pulled me in to press against him.
His beautiful face was shy, his eyes lowered. He licked his lips. “I liked that,” he said, and darted a quick glance up at me before looking away.
“As did I.” I touched his chin, bringing his gaze back up to mine. My chest swelled with tenderness as it always did when he let me look at him. Reallylookat him, not just admire him.
He shuffled closer, until we were wound together as close as we could be.
It was another thing he loved to indulge in, this closeness.
I was almost certain that he enjoyed the intimacy and the afterglow more than the actual act of making love. He loved to wind himself around me, hold me close, as if I’d drift away from him if he didn’t.
It was strange, but I felt his love then like a physical thing. It was a warmth inside and all around me, a mingling of the invisible parts of me with the invisible parts of him.