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I bit back a smile.

“Probably why I loved failing math so much too.”

I hollered a laugh, quickly discarding any thoughts about telling him about the prescription.

An hour later, we had wound down, moments away from going to sleep.

We were going on an adventure tomorrow.

That night probably would’ve been a good time to bring up the whole baby thing, but after I got in my head, I decided against it. We were back in a good place, and things were still delicate. It just didn’t feel like the right time to suggest another shift for us.

As Hassani showered in the en suite, I waited in bed, scrolling through my phone.

Our new thing—though it wasn’t really new to us—was cuddling. A substitute for what we really loved doing, since we couldn’t make love right now.

I skimmed through different posts from people I knew, but stopped on one from my high school friend Chloe.

She was announcing her pregnancy. Her first.

A pang of jealousy hit me, twisting the muscles in my stomach.

I almost hated myself for wondering…

Will that ever be me?

I clicked out of my phone the moment Hassani emerged from the en suite.

He was wearing nothing but boxers.

Boxers that did very little to hide the imprint of his dick.

“Distracted?” he teased as he climbed into bed.

I sly grin spread across my face.

Hassani pulled me into him, and I nestled comfortably in his arms, my back pressed against his chest.

“I love you, baby,” he whispered in my ear before pressing a soft kiss there.

“I love you too.”

I wanted to say more. Maybe tell him about Chloe, then ease into everything else: the pills, the baby. But instead, I just stayed there, wrapped in his arms, letting the warmth of his body speak louder than the words I couldn’t bring myself to say.

I didn’t want to ruin a good thing by adding something new... not yet, at least.

CHAPTER 20

Ayla

“Wow.” I climbed the RV’s stairs, glancing behind me for only a second. “That was so much fun.”

Hassani smiled as he trailed up behind me.

The entire trip had been fun—an experience I never knew I needed.

I dropped myself onto the plush leather seating, kicking my feet up and smiling to myself.

I had totally underestimated how dope it was to live on the road.

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