Then—
Slows.
Just a little.
I keep my legs up until I stop seeing stars. Until I can breathe without feeling like my ribs are going to split. Until my heart remembers it’s not a live grenade.
I should tell someone.
Not Ainsley.
Not yet.
She’ll look at me like I’m fragile. Like I’m glass. And I’m already one more skipped beat away from shattering without help.
I pull myself off the floor and wash my face. Cold water. Rinse the sweat off my hairline, pat down my shirt so it doesn’t cling like I just ran a marathon in place.
When I open the door, Sebastian’s leaning in the hallway, arms crossed.
“You good?”
I nod. “Yeah.”
He studies me. “That was a long piss.”
“Enlightening,” I mutter, brushing past him.
“Your heart?”
“Fixed it.”
“Jeez, Mav.”
I don’t reply. I don’t have the bandwidth for a lecture. He knows it and lets it drop.
For now.
I return to the table, grab a pen, and scribble a few numbers in the margin of Melissa Chen’s file. It’s easier than thinking.Easier than dealing with the part of me that knows this is unsustainable.
This is a fire sale, and I’m just rearranging matches.
Because if I stop for even a second—if I really let myself feel how close I am to going down—then I won’t be able to crawl back up.
And I can’t let Ainsley see the wreckage if I fall.
CHAPTER SIX
Rumor has it, she's got a stalker.
Ainsley
There are two things I’ve learned today.
One: Marine biology is actually trying to kill me.
Two: Maverick Lexington has lost his damn mind.
I’m sitting in the corner of the campus café, surrounded by a hurricane of flashcards, three pens that all claim to be “fine point” but are lying, and a very large iced coffee that tastes like grass and soy milk. And yet, none of this chaos compares to the betrayal that occurred in our apartment this morning.