Page 98 of A Pizza My Heart

A part of me is thankful for the break. My head is so muddled and confused right now that I could use the perspective.

But…I miss him. And not just his touch—him.

I miss him making me laugh. I miss the way he looks at me, like I’m the only person in the room. I miss the way he makes me feel…what did he say the other night?

Alive.

I miss feeling alive.

“It’s complicated, Drew.”

“The only complication I can see is that you don’t want to get out of your own damn head long enough to see that the boy is head over heels in love with you.”

“Right, buuuut…” I draw the word out as I climb onto the couch in the small waiting area where Drew’s been camped out for hours now. “He just got divorced, which means all these years he’s been in love with me, he’s also been sleeping in someone else’s bed.”

“Is that your hang-up?”

“Yes and no.”

“Then explain yourself, woman. I’m not getting any damn younger over here.”

“Ugh,” I groan, running my hand through my hair, wishing it were Foster’s hand instead.

And there my body goes wanting him again.

“You know, I’d kill for a man to want me like he wants you.”

“Things not going well with Chadwick?” I hope she doesn’t catch the hopefulness in my voice.

“We, uh, we broke up.” She doesn’t meet my eyes when she says this, which is very unlike her. Drew doesn’t beat around the bush about anything.

“Spill.”

“What?”

“Don’t BS me, Drew Amanda Woods. There’s something going on but you’re not telling me. So spill.”

“I’m too scared to say it out loud.”

“Why?”

“Because it makes it real.”

Her eyes are brimming with unshed tears, and I immediately go to her, wrapping her in my arms.

“What’s going on, Drew? You can tell me anything, you know that.”

She doesn’t say anything for a while, just hugs me.

I let her.

I feel her tremble as she begins to cry, but I don’t say anything, giving her time to let it all out.

After several moments, she snuffles and pulls away from me, pushing her hair out of her face and wiping away the tears.

“Sorry.” She sniffles and laughs lightly. “My hormones are all out of whack right now.”

“Period?”

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