Page 53 of Lady Sings the Blues

“Won’t touch me if I don’t want them to or it’s rape. Are your brothers rapists?”

“Fuck no. We don’t hurt women or children.”

“So then you’re assuming I want them to fuck with me, that I am a whore.”

“I’m not gonna win here, am I?”

“What’s to win? Every brother who smiles at me gets the same in your face lecture. You are the only man I want, Beau Hollister. You. But now everyone is just going to look at me like some home-wrecking whore who can’t be trusted. So thanks for that.”

“Shit.Baby girl, I did not mean that. It’s just, you’re mine now. Finally, you’re mine. You chose Logan before, what’s to say you won’t change your mind about me?”

“So then youdon’ttrust me. I didn’t choose Logan over you. He spoke up first, wooed me while you stood back with your hands in your pockets.” Her face scrunches up, with those damn glassy eyes, like she’s about to cry.

“Calm down.”

“Forget you, Beau. Things changed for us. And you know it. I wanted a life with you. For five years, I couldn’t move past you. Not until I met Mark. And oh, who was Mark?You.” The tremble to her voice at the end guts me, the tears she fights so hard to keep from fallin’ ruins me.

“God, Iaman idiot. Come here, baby girl.” When she don’t move I reach out, tugging her to me. “I’m so damn sorry.”

Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning from the weight of how much I feel for Elise, how deep my love goes. The anchor of our past constantly pushin’ my head under relationship waters, to where I’m swimmin’ hard to break through the surface, tryin’ to catch a breath. I don’t know what the hell I’m doin’ here.

Before Elise, I fucked around in high school. But when you’re young and the town considers you a golden god, you dip your dick in as many holes as are wiling. Then Elise showed up in front of the Whippy Dip, and my world changed forever. I knew then if it wasn’t with her, I never wanted a relationship. Even when she chose my dipshit cousin. For the past seven years, I’ve continued to dip my dick in any and every willing hole, biding my time until this precious woman was in my arms. Now here she is, and I’m fuckin’ it up.

The pissed-off expression hasn’t left her face when I bring my mouth to hers. At least she don’t push me away. Soft and easy, she presses those delicate lips against mine. Funny how I can begin to breathe again with my mouth pressed to hers. I don’t push for more. This is her deal. But I won’t deny being fuckin’ ecstatic when she grabs fistfuls of my shirt, runnin’ her tongue over the seam of my lips for me to open to her.

Hell yeah, she does.

From pissed-off to turned on, in a matter of seconds. Dirty. Gritty. Arms and hands. Tongues and teeth. We’re wild and frantic.

Never really cared much for kissin’ with other women. It was just a means to an end. With Elise, I could kiss her for a week straight before my dick ever touched her. Of course, we ain’t waitin’ that long.

She wraps her legs around my waist, takin’ breaths through her nose so she don’t have to leave my mouth. My hands on her ass, keepin’ her propped up, I begin the slow, backward walk to the bed.

As the backs of my knees hit the edge of the mattress, I twist to lay her down.

She breaks off the kiss, pushin’ at my chest. “Wait, wait, wait.”

Now? I could drop my hands and hold her up with just my cock, I’m so hard for her. And she wants to stop? But what choice do I have? “What’s wrong, baby girl?”

“You’ve um—slept with pieces here, right?” she asks through pants.

“What?Yeah.” I snap, not meaning to. Frustration from needing to be inside her makes me an ornery bastard.

“Can we flip the mattress first?”

“Why?”

“Groupie juices,” she answers.

My hands still on her ass, I stop kneading her butt cheeks and cock my head, as I didn’t see that comin’. “Whatthe fuck?”

Groupie juices?I throw my head back and laugh. And I laugh loud. Got-damn I love this woman. “Yeah darlin’, let’s flip the damn mattress so I can be inside you already.”

“Nice to hear romance isn’t dead.” she goads.

“Hey, I can be romantic. Just let me show you after we fuck.”

“Doesn’t that defeat the purpose?”

“No baby girl, it don’t. Because now that I got you, I plan on keepin’ you.”

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