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“Though that part of my life is almost over, can you handle that it’ll always be a part of me?” I pecked her lips.

“Last night we agreed that we’d accept one another for who we were. I accept you for all that you are and will be, so why wouldn’t I?” She rested her arms on my shoulders as she pressed her forehead against mine.

Chapter 9

GAYZE

“It’s been a minute. You wanna catch me up on you?” Kenya asked.

I smiled and mentally sorted through my brain. I mean, I didn’t know where I should start. It was Monday, and I had spent my entire weekend wrapped up in Mazz’s presence.

“You’re smiling, so that has to be something.”

I giggled. “It is. I spent the weekend with Mazzier.”

She nodded for me to continue.

“It was wonderful, actually. It was like I was able to just let go, to not be in control of something for once. I felt so at peace and so relaxed.” I explained.

“As for Chase?”

I didn’t mean to laugh when she said his name, but I did. “So I went to talk to him at work Friday because we had a few words earlier that day. I had finally planned on having that talk. So we were talking, and this woman walked up to us, and she asked him who I was and referred to him asbabe.” I twisted my lips up, looking at her.

Kenya was rarely surprised, but at this moment, she was. I could see it in her posture and the way she took her glasses off of her face. “How did that make you feel?”

“Like a weight had been lifted from my chest. The thing is, even if I wasn’t dealing with Mazzier, Chase and I weren’t working. There were too many things we wouldn’t talk about, too many things we wouldn’t say to one another unless we were arguing. Then and only then would we say things to hurt one another’s feelings.”

She nodded. “How do you feel now?”

“Like I’m suspended in the air.” I closed my eyes and rested back against the sofa.

“Is there a downside to that?”

I bit my bottom lip. “I don’t know yet. I’m trying not to allow my mind to summon all of the wrong thoughts. I wanna think positive and be?—”

“Happy,” she finished.

I opened my eyes and I peered at her. “Yes, happy. So I choose not to question things and think of all that could go bad. I choose to keep my mind on all that is going right.”

“I like that. Then stay suspended.” She closed her book and looked at me.

Today’s session went faster than most of our meetings. I didn’t know why I was surprised, but I was. The full ride back to my job, I talked to Nadeen. She made me promise that I’d come out to eat with her and Autumn. I knew I’d been lacking on girl time and damn near giving more time to my job and Mazz. The thing is my job took up 99 percent of my week, so whatever was left over was for sleep, and these days Mazz fit in with that. I was no fool, and I knew for sure he’d demand more of my time because he was a man. For now, it worked, and I liked the idea of him shifting his schedule around me. Actually, I liked him, so this worked. Once I entered my hospital, I smiled seeing thatit was another slow day. That was good because it meant I’d be going home on time.

“Dr. Fields, there is a man who insisted that he wait in your office for you.” The nurse at the front desk stopped me before I walked into my office.

I nodded and proceeded to my office. I expected it to be Mazz, because I had snuck out of his house today while he was asleep. When I opened my door, I was sadly mistaken. It was Chase.

“What are you doing here?” I set my purse on the sofa and proceeded to walk past him to my desk.

“We need to talk.”

I laughed. “About?”

He mugged me before exhaling harshly. “Us. I know I fu?—”

“There is no us, Chase. There is you, and there’s me. We are no longer intertwined.” I corrected him.

“I refuse to believe that. I messed up pretty bad, but I love you. She’s just an intern.” He shrugged it off like it meant nothing.

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