Page 62 of He Thugged Me First

“Outta my personal shit, what’s good with business?” I asked him. For the sake of names I was still in the game, but physically I had been out. Kasair had been running shit since then.

“Shipments came in and money is green. Sass still has no idea who this Miles character is.”

I nodded my head. Not a day went by that I didn’t think about that, but until I had something other than a last name there wasn’t shit a soul could do about it. That bothered me the most because I hated not having control of things. “I think it's because I'm out fully.” He knew what meeting I was talking about.

He rubbed his hands together. “You do?”

I nodded my head. I knew he could handle this shit, and he had Quari to back him up if not. I had already been out of commission since I got shot, so he had It. Now it was time for me to find life after, I was just hoping that included Gauze. I ended up talking to Kasair for a few hours longer before that nigga was ready to go and my sister was blowing his line down. He called me a simp’ but Mecca seemed to be running shit.

I was on my way home when I heard that lil’ voice in my head and I ended up going in the direction of Gayze’s crib. I was shocked to see her standing outside when I pulled up. I was even more shocked to see her with a leash in her hand and attached to it a small dog. She wasn’t paying any attention to her surroundings, so I parked and got out of the car. She didn’t see me until it was too late and I was standing in front of her. I couldn’t take my eyes off the dog she now had in her arms.

“Why are you here?” She asked, obviously not trying to hear shit I had to say. I could just see it in her demeanor.

“We gotta talk.”

She laughed, it wasn’t one of joy or amusement. It was one of irritation and annoyance. “Talk.”

I rubbed my hands together. “Upstairs, it’s too cold out here.”

She reluctantly nodded her head and turned on her heels to enter her building. When we walked in, we immediately hopped onto the elevator and she pushed her code into the keypad so we could go up. Once we got to her crib, I couldn’t take my eyes off the little dog now resting on her sofa. She had whipped his paws off and sat him there.

“How much you pay for that, I could’ve gotten?—”

“You didn’t come up here about my dog. What is it we need to talk about Mazzier.” She crossed her arms and looked at me with those narrow daggering eyes. Though she tried to hide it, I could still see the raw emotion behind her anger.

“I fucked up.”

“That part is evident, now tell me something I don’t know.” She responded in a matter of fact tone.

“I never planned to do none of that. I don’t know what got into me, G. I wasn’t thinking and in the process I hurt you and fucked up what we were building.”

She nodded her head.

“I’ve been blowing down ya line because I gotta make this shit right, I can?—”

“Let me stop you there.” She threw her hand up. “The damage is done, Mazzier. There’s no going back and fixing it.”

I threw my head back floored at what she said. I understood she was hurt and all but why wouldn’t she give me a chance to fix it? “And why the fuck not?” I asked. I knew I shouldn’t have come in here giving her a choice. See she would’ve reacted better if I came in here on some toxic shit.

“Because you fucked it up. I can’t be with you like that again.”

I felt that one in my chest when it came out of her lips, but I could also tell she didn’t mean it. I could read Gauze like the back of my hand and I could tell she was speaking out of her hurt. “See that’s where I fucked up, I let you think there was anoption not to be with me. I let you cool down and all that but you belong to me.” I mugged her.

She looked me over and shook her head, “I meant what I said Mazzier.”

I walked up on her, invading her space. “Prove it. tell me to leave and never contact you again and I promise I will. You’ll never hear or see me again.” I was lying, nothing or no one could keep me from her, not even her.

She looked up at me and as bad as I could tell she wanted to say it, she couldn’t. I didn’t doubt she was angry and hurt, but she had to let me make this right. Before I knew it our lips were intertwined and I had picked her up. She wrapped her legs around my waist as I carried her toward her bedroom. I knew for sure she missed me like I missed her. The moment her back hit the bed, she just looked at me and I could see all that she was thinking in her eyes. Unfastening my pants, I never broke eye contact as I freed myself. I know I had fucked up, but I needed her to feel how much I regretted it. I reached into my pants pocket and pulled the condom out. Once I had it open, I rolled it down my length before I stalked over and stood at the foot of the bed. I leaned forward and pulled her down to where I needed her. First, I allowed my fingers to feel around and familiarize myself with the flesh I so badly missed, before I brought them to my lips.

“You missed me, G?” I asked, locking my eyes on hers as she studied me.

She nodded her head

I thrusted myself against her wet sopping flesh. “You gonna let me come home?”

She bit her bottom lip, glancing at me with nothing but confliction in her eyes. “No, because you like apartments.” She probably didn’t mean to but that last part sounded more like a moan than anything.

I rubbed the tip of my hardness against her opening before pushing into her with one thrust. “She didn’t mean shit, G. This it?—”

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